Boy across the street (KSM/HHJ)

thirty-one

Seungmin PoV

I felt his hands on my neck on my arms and Hips. His lips seemed to be everywhere

Our breathing became heavy, our tongues played with each other. He held my hand tightly and didn't want to let it go. The alcohol in me made me forget where I was, who I was with and who I was. I wanted to brush his blonde hair out of his face like I loved to do. But for a brief moment I could see eyes that weren't looking at me the way I was used to. I couldn't see any blonde hair, just short brown hair. It wasn't him I was kissing. 

It wasn't Hyunjin.

I squeezed my eyes shut to stop the tears as he asked, "What exactly do you mean?"

My legs were shaking and I felt like they would soon give out and I would fall to the ground. 

"I-I made out with someone... A-And it wasn't you..." I stuttered, keeping my eyes closed. I didn't want to see the disappointment on his face. I didn't even know how it happened, I was at this party where Minho and Changbin took me and then everything happened too quickly.

"Seungmin, this is no reason to cry," he said and I slowly opened my eyes again. When I looked at him I wanted to look away again. I could see a little pain in his eyes. "I-I'm s-sorry, I got drunk and lost control," I sobbed and looked away. 

"It's okay Minnie," he said in a calm voice and wanted to come closer but I didn't want that. For some reason I had the feeling that he was lying to me so that I would feel better. I didn't want to admit how good-natured he was to me, which is why I looked at him desperately. 

"You're lying, I can see the pain on your face. I'm a terrible person!" 

Then he said nothing more and I continued: "I'm sorry... I'm so sorry Hyunjin." 

"Please stop-"

"I'm sorry!" I screamed through tears, trying to calm myself down. That was the second time he saw me like that. But I was drunk and didn't know what I was doing. I probably wouldn't even remember it if I went to sleep and woke up. "Please forgive me...please."

"Seungmin, I just explained to you that it's okay," he said, but I didn't believe it.

"I kissed someone else, that's unforgivable!"

"Minnie, you were completely drunk and it's not like we're a couple," the older one said in a soft voice and took my hand, but I felt so guilty. I let go of one of his hands and wiped the tears from my face with my sleeves. "But-" 

"No buts, of course I'm jealous but I'm not mad at you by any means." 

He let go of the one hand he was holding and placed both of his hands on my cheeks. 

I looked deeply into the older's eyes but continued to sob. He wiped away all my tears with his thumbs. "H-Hyunjin..." I whispered. The whole thing seemed to bother me much more than him. 

Maybe he didn't like me the way I did. But he said he would be jealous of it but couldn't do anything about it because we weren't a couple. My thoughts were spinning again.

"Why are you jealous?" I asked sobbing and he rested his forehead against mine. 

"Because I love you," he said with the smile I loved so much. 

My heart stopped.He told me without any warning. He just told me that he loved me... 

At that moment, I wanted to be sober more than ever. I didn't want to forget any of it.

"I-I do too," I whispered, barely audible, but he heard it anyway because he smiled and answered me. "Stupid. You're so stupid, I've done so much to make you understand that I only see you," said the other and I smiled weakly. "

"You're driving me crazy Hyunjin..." I whispered, longing for his lips. Hyunjin giggled and stroked my cheek. "I know I do."

He gently placed a kiss on my forehead and ruffled my hair. "You should rest. Lie down and try to sleep, okay?" he said gently and let go of me.

When I wanted to go up, I swayed a little. I mumbled something that I didn't understand myself and then slowly went up.

My bed was warm and soft and like mine As my eyes closed, I didn't want to be alone. So I called Hyunjin on my cell phone.

"Please come here... I want to cuddle," I mumbled into the microphone and hung up again. I could have just gone downstairs to him, but I was dizzy from the alcohol.

It was so stupid of me to get drunk again, but I felt like I needed it.

But Hyunjin stayed, not like my sister who I had disappointed so much... Will I still remember what happened?

That Hyunjin said he loved me? Or will I forget it and it will have to repeat itself again. I hoped not. I liked how it was right now.

My door opened and the older man came in and sat next to me and I put my head on his lap.

He stroked my hair and whispered, "I'm not tired. I hope you don't mind me being on my cell phone."

I shook my head and whispered, "Just stay here."

His hand continued to run through my hair, his fingers played with strands and slowly and contentedly I could feel myself disappearing into my dream world.

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