Fraud Emotion.

Trauma

Non-trauma survivors think trauma is mummy or daddy being mean to you. It's not being mean a few times, it's the way they treated you as a child that altered you to the extent that you don't know if your personality is yours truly or if you are the impostor among us. It's more than just daddy issues and mommy issues.

It's more than calling some Daddy or Mummy when they take care of all your needs when you are in a haze of comfort and arousal. Sometimes trauma survivors get high on their trauma because they deem that is their value for going through that. It's growing up without a parent's validation, comfort and love that makes those kids find it elsewhere or anywhere than home.

It takes years to let go and find yourself and it takes to find yourself. Trauma survivors survive their trauma in different ways. Some of those ways might be sane and some might even be twisted and make others uncomfortable. Coping mechanisms are weird, some would want to cope while some would just want to die.

So in a sense if ever see me doing something you deem weird, just know, that it is just me trying to find myself in this insane world. After all, life is too short to live it sane, be insane, be in love, be chaotic, be yourself. Be an absolute nightmare to the ones who make you question every ounce of your life.

Being a parent is a huge responsibility, you being a life into this world, a life that never asked to be born. So how can you fuck that life up? How can you just ditch that child when they need you? How can you not understand that child? Isn't the umbilical cord that connected you to your child an invisible bond of eternity? Or was it a lie? Fucking around and popping a kid doesn't exactly warrant you being a parent, it's being able to care, comfort and love the child that makes you a parent. Humans are dangerous yet fragile beings.

They have brains and they can think. Having the capability to think is why we are fragile and dangerous as we can overthink our existence or become a heartless animals. If the day comes you can rip another life apart without remorse for absolutely no fucking reason, that's the day you become a heartless animal.

It takes a great will to break the trauma cycle. Sometimes it is just about if someone had loved me the way the stars love their existence. Most trauma survivors ask for someone to come and save them but they end up saving themselves.

I am not going to ask you to see the world the way I do but I ask you one thing, don't belittle someone's trauma even if you don't understand it, fair enough, just be honest with that and move away from them. You don't need to lessen their value anymore. It took them years to find themselves after being in a maze.

Hence why you don't get to waltz in and fuck them any worse than life already did. People are different and two souls are alike. We were created for love and to love. In the midst of that, where did war come along? Where did trauma come along? Why did we begin hurting those who knew nothing other than love? War came along because humans got greedy and they couldn't be suppressed with love anymore. We began hurting others just because we didn't like them for being weaker than us or just because we didn't like having someone to share with. The trauma came along when we began hurting people and expected them to just laugh it out and not cry.

One in pain will cry. One in agony will not cry as they are broken beyond to shed a tear. They no longer want life. Trauma can do a lot to someone.