Meetha sa Ruhani ISHQ (Sequel)

220. Traumatic incident part 20

Mini glanced at him with tears in her eyes and lowered her gaze again, sobbing slowly.

Neil: Let's go and get your emotional mess cleared off.

Neil stood up from the bed and taking the blanket, draped around Mini as she was in the bathrobe and lifted her up.

He took her to the balcony. They sat on the mattress there and Neil covered her properly with the blanket for her not to get cold or fever. The cool breeze hit on Mini's face and she could feel the fresh air soothing her.

He wrapped his arm around her shoulder and let her rest her head on his shoulder, keeping his other hand on her cheek. They were facing the night sky.

Mini: Neil... tumhe yaad hai tumne mujhse ek savaal kiya tha yahi baithke... ki Mini kya tum chahti ho ki main badal jau?... Aur tumne mujhse honest jawaab ki expectation ki thi. 

Neil: Ha.

Mini: Aaj mujhse tumse honest jawaab chahiye Neil... Kya sachme kuch nahi badlega?

Neil: (made her look at him) Honest?... Pakka?

Mini: Hmm...

Neil: Badlega to sahi... Ab tak tum mujhe sambhaalti thi... ab meri baari aayi hai... Par ek baat kahu... (holding her chin and swayed her head lightly, with a small dramatic pout) Yeh jo udaas si shakal hai na meri Mini Madam ki... Ahan.... Bilkul suit nahi karti... (using her technique on her) Feeki si chai ki tarah... Jisme bas tumhari muskuraahat ki shakkar ki zaroorat hai zayka laane ke liye..... (scrunching his eyes cutely) Vo kya hai... Mujhe black tea peene ki aadat nahi hai na... 

Mini smiled at his lame joke and he rubbed off her tears.

Mini: Bahot bakwaas joke tha. 

Neil: Muskurahat vaapas laane ke laayak to tha na..... (imitating her) Ab koi baat baat pe dukhi ho jaaye to kya kar sakte hai na?... Preparation to honi hi chahiye.

Mini smiled remembering her coaxing him the same way and she kept her head on his shoulder.

Neil: Jokes apart.... (patting softly on her head to relax her) Mini you need to realise ki yeh sab itna asaan nahi hai... itni itni si problems nahi hai Mini yeh.... Tumhare life ki ek bahot badi battle hai... Injuries ke saath... Depression ke saath... Insecurities and anxiety ke saath.... Tum lad rahi ho Mini har pal.... Thak gayi ho to aaram kar lo.... kuch galat nahi hai thak jaane me.... yahan tak ki haar jaane me bhi.... Kyunki tumne koshish kar li.... Just let go of the pressure you are taking on yourself every now and then.... Agar tum nahi bhi ho paayi strong to kya ho jayega?.... I am here for you.... I will protect you.... I will take care of you... I will fight for you.... It's nothing wrong in it... And it's completely fine..... 

Mini: Aise to main dependent ho jaungi na...

Neil: Mini.... I know independent hona bahot acchi baat hai... lekin dependent ho jaana bhi galat nahi hai... 

Mini: Is it?

Neil: Obviously... Main tumpe dependent hu na emotionally?

Mini: Hmm...

Neil: To?... Tum mujhpe dependent nahi ho sakti ho kya?... Tum kyu aisa sochti ho ki agar tum strong nahi rahi... agar tum brave nahi rahi... agar tum har waqt duniya se ladne ke liye taiyaar nahi rahi.... agar tum kisi pe dependent ho gayi to tumhari value kam ho jayegi?.....

Mini: Pata nahi...

Neil: Main batau?

Mini: Hmm...

Neil: Mini... We all are a subtotal of our memories Mini... Tumhe jab sense of security ki requirement thi tab tumhe vo nahi mili to ab tumhe lagta hai ki vo sense of security ek dependence hai... but it's not... It's just that ki har kisi ke weak points hote hai... some are physically weak... some are emotionally weak... some are socially weak.... but none of them is wrong... sab apni apni jagah sahi hai... kyunki ek insaan har jagah se strong aur brave ho yeh zaruri nahi hai...