𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐅𝐄𝐒𝐒𝐎𝐑'𝐒 𝐂𝐀𝐏𝐓𝐈𝐕𝐄

little touch

Coming in I saw mom in kitchen with teena, when she saw me she asked nurse to take her in hall.
"Honey what happened, you are home so early" ,she looked at main door,
"where is Josh" she held my hand , she  got tensed looking at my face.
Mirror in behind sofa told me how I looked; red monkey.
"I stained my dress , period stain mom" I tell her.
"Oh you scared me", she said laughing a little.
"It's ok honey , it happens, go and  change ", she tells me and I looked at nurse, "gave her injections?" I asked and she nodded.

"I'll be right back mom", I said and she nodded, I'm pretty comfortable with her, she made me comfortable around her.
She rarely call me by my name it's always honey, sweetheart or daughter.
When I came down after changing, I gave mom some cookies he bought for me and we chatted for a while.
I was having serious bad cramps, so I went to my room,lying on my bed upside down gives a little comfort.

"Ahm" I looked at the owner of this "ahm" none other than my husband; the apple of my eyes, I said to myself and mentally laugh.
"Mom have to leave for hospital and she wants to meet you before she leaves" ,he said looking around my room and making a face ; like the eww one.
I got up and walked in hurry and was about to fall when my socks went slippery on the floor beneath, but before that he held me in his arms.
For a second, for a very small moment his eyes stayed on mine and then travelled to my lips, but that moment passed so quick, leaving us in the utter reality of our positions.
"Careful..you idiot" , he said helping me stand properly and I don't know the reason but I blushed when he called me an idiot; something is wrong with me.

Seeing mom leaving I felt really sad, only she made me feel at home here, I was with her all afternoon, I just came in my room when she forced me to rest, she told me she's not going today, I bet it's him who is sending her off.

"I'll miss you mom" I tell her with tears in my eyes, sitting in front of her with my head on her lap.
She stroked my hairs back "I'll miss you too honey, please come hospital often",
I nodded and she gave me a peck on cheeks then she looked at her son "take care of eachother" and he nodded.
"I want to come too" I said in low voice looking down at mom's hands that were collapsed with mine.
She looked at him with side eyes and cupped my face,  "it's ok honey rest here and do your ,so called homework ,otherwise after I'll leave someone will bother you".
"Yes ,yes I'm the bad person here ,now we are getting late , can we please!!". He said in his stern voice.
After a very sad goodbye, I ate some fruits and slept.
Cramps were real bad, when I woke up it was 9pm and I didn't make dinner yet!!.
Is he back from hospital?
I quickly went downstairs and lights of hall are still off, he is not back I guess.
I turned on the lights and went to make dinner and there is a knock on door.
It's one of the gaurds,"Mam boss will be late and he'll eat out", he tell me and left.
"Why didn't he call and told me instead what is this behaviour of sending messages from strangers, but I'm also a stranger to him right!.
I don't wanna cook for  just myself , I boiled some noodles for myself and turned off the lights and went to hall.
Should I watch movie or drama!,
I decided on watching a movie; -Notebook.
I'm crying for two reasons one because of  this movie; emotional as hell and  the other because these noodles are too spicy.
I'm having cramps again and that too bad one.
I placed dishes on coffee table,I literally don't have any energy to wash them, I took painkiller from the drawer in kitchen and some hot pads for my cramps.
With a  weird position of my legs folded in X and my head digging inside sofa ,I was watching end part the of movie ,atleast they get a happy ending and here I am not even knowing where my story is going, is there is a story or I'm just imagining it all by myself.

I don't know when I fell asleep on couch, I woke up by strong loud voice and I fell out of couch.
"How many times do I have to tell you to not sleep out here", he smashed the noodle bowl on floor.
I looked at him, his red face , he looks frustrated.
I silently picked up the glass and broken dishes and went to put them in kitchen meanwhile he called someone and scolded the hell out of that person; why he is so angry?.
Its two in morning ,I should be sleeping right now but here I am pouring water for him in glass, he make me do so much of work!!!.
I flinched with another glass breaking sound ,what did he break this time!
I should not go infront of him, otherwise he'll make me prey of his frustration and anger .
But if I won't serve him water that'll count as a mistake, aghhhh what should I do.
He is shouting, angry , sighing heavily.
Right now he is standing with his body facing our main door, with one of his hand on his waist and other is holding phone to his ears.
I quickly traced my steps to table; just put and leave ,just put the freakin glass and run for your life, I told myself and walked to hall.
"I'll kill you mother fucker,son of bitch, I'll wrath your life apart ,how could you think that you'll get away with this , I'll be right here to slam the life out of you" ,
He said to someone and came back to sofa to grab something, he glanced once at me , it was nothing but ,"Don't come infront me " look and with slamming the door behind he left.
It's 2 in the morning ,he was talking to someone about taking his life.
What the hell is going on!
I can't sleep now.
I waited in hall for another two hours, scrolling through my phone, replying to my friends texts.
I got a little out of touch with my friends, I do talk to grey pretty often before bed, but I only talked to josh in text.
I'm tired now, why isn't he coming back,I have to go college too, I went to my room and scrolling through social media I fell asleep.
When I woke up according to my body clock, first thing in my mind was, did he come back?.
I sprinted downstairs and saw him.
He is sleeping on sofa , shoes on, dried blood on knuckles, and a little bruise on his face.
I went towards him without making a single noise, sitting in front of him with both of my arms crossed around my knees, I know I can stare at him like this forever.

He looks tired, I unconsciously touched his face , around his eyes with my one tiny finger ,but quick enough to remove them before he give me bruises too.
He is in deep sleep, he doesn't look scary when his eyes are shut.
I thought of removing his shoes but what if he wake up in between.

I want to steal a little touch again, I can't resist putting my index finger out to touch his cheeks again,but before I could his alarm start ringing.
With that sharp sound ,I jolted back with my ass and hands on ground;pain.

And he shot open his eyes and passed straight confused look at me with raising his one eyebrow, "What".
Ohhh my godd his sleepy voice is so deep , grumbly, irritated, I'm literally chocking for air; so hot.
With a fake forced smile ,I nodded my head like a pig for 100 times; "Good morning sir ,good morning".
I'm still there with my ass and hands on ground.
Without even acknowledging me, he got up and streched his arms and back and I looked at him with my mouth hung open with him towering over me.
I look like a rat infront of this huge human, he glanced down at me and then left saying,"pre workout in 5minutes".
I must say this man is something, he probably slept for 2hours and just got up and so disciplined for his routine.
And here I am, slept like a pig for 12 hours and still wants to warm this sofa for another few hours.
He is punctual I must say, no matter what ,he never miss any of his routine.
I made him his protein shake and banana cloters with cherry on top.
Putting it right on the counter, I made my way to my room.
I greeted him already, so I went to fresh and up , it's too gross in periods.

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