𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐅𝐄𝐒𝐒𝐎𝐑'𝐒 𝐂𝐀𝐏𝐓𝐈𝐕𝐄

Tragedy

Grinny

"How can you do this to yourself, can't you see he clearly ran off, he already left you." Grey shouted at me looking at my condition.
It's been thirty five hour since I last saw him and only I know how I've spent these hours.
Each second felt like forever, I sat on the stairs , staring at the road.
I had not moved from that spot since Mr temple left a day ago, I wished not to eat or drink anything until he comes back but grey was stubborn, she sat next to me and said she'll not eat if, I will not.
Because of her I had orange juice but swear to my soul I vomited right after, even my body is not accepting anything right now.
Yesterday evening Mr temple came and asked me to come with him, but no, I will not move a inch from here,not even if it takes him hundred years;I'll wait for him, right here .
What if comes back and I'm not here, what if misunderstand me again for leaving him.

I had tried to call him, text him, I even emailed him, but he did not reply. I don't know where he is , is he safe, he had eaten or not,or if he is even alive.

I couldn't eat anything not even a drop of water went down my throat , I felt my body getting weak but I couldn't sleep .
All the tears are dried now, I can't even cry anymore. I just waited for him, as my eyes longed for his green once, I stared at our gate hoping to see him come out of his car ,hoping for him he would come back and hug me, hoping for him to embrace me and forgive me.

As the time goes my heart strirred with every passing moment, God I'm dying to see him and all I could do is nothing but just wait.
Will he ever come back?
I loved him more than anything, more than I ever loved anyone, I gave him my heart , body and soul even though he never asked for it.
I had him as my only one and now I'm like the fish out water as if he was oxygen to live.

Ofcourse we were tied by a string named contract , but I know it wasn't just contract , not for me and not for him too.

He had a dark side, a raging streak, a possessive nature but he wasn't just bad to me.
He had hurt me in many ways; true', physically,emotionally and mentally but I always forgave him because he wasn't just a freak to me, he was kind, he was responsible, he was mature.

I've seen his eyes When I was hurt and I can swear on all the stars in this galaxy that they held warmth for me, they held love for me when he kissed me in the morning, they held care when I was on my periods.
Even before we been physical he never left me hungry, he never left me out on road to walk alone, he never made me feel unsafe.
I knew he had anger issue but that was only like a huge wind of hot wave but as soon as that wave will pass , I knew he'll again embrace me in his arms.
He'll again clasp me under his breath where I'll forget all my pain again.
I have seen his darkness but even in that darkness I knew there was a light on the other end that why I always believed he would change, he would love me the way I deserved.
Being and orphan all my life I craved only for love and may be only for few time but I have seen glimpse of it in his eyes and
That's why I always blamed myself for his outbursts, for his anger, for his jealousy. I always thought I could fix him, I can take his pain away and heal him, I always thought that I'll give him a new way with my love , I always thought my love was enough to made him love me and to save him but I guess I failed.

"Grinny are you even listening to me!!!! grinnn please"
Her voice made me jolt back breaking the rail of my thoughts.
"Can't you see Grinny, if he had any thought of coming back to you, he would have by now ,but look he is not here, is he?".

"You don't know anything!" I tried to shout at her but my voice wasn't louder than whisper.

"Don't be stubborn grinny, let's go, come with me, are dumb , can't you see he kicked you out of his house, he didn't pick up your calls, his manager didn't come back after yesterday, he clearly cut you off, he left you."