𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐅𝐄𝐒𝐒𝐎𝐑'𝐒 𝐂𝐀𝐏𝐓𝐈𝐕𝐄

My guardian

Grinny

Last night I just had half bowl of noodles and this morning,well a good head smashing.

It's true, I should've thought about the menu and him not eating yesterday but I was told that he'll eat outside.

Yesterday he was sweet , caring and today he smashed my head, abused me , handled me so roughly and dropped  me too far away from college.

I had to walk in sun and I was already low on my energy chart with all the abuse and not eating breakfast.

I entered college and I heard the first lecture ring, I don't know but my heart start beating so fast, just from the thought of being late in his class.
Before I could take another step; I blacked out.

When I opened my eyes, I was in medical room, and there was this teacher who told me why I passed out and gave me juice and put me onto glucose drip.

She asked me about bruises on my head and wrist and when I didn't tell her anything ,she asked me about my guardian and their contact number.

What should I tell her, that her colleagues himself is my guardian, no my husband who gave me these bruises.

I cried when she called him and I'm pretty sure she didn't realise its him.
Not too late he came, I know he is more frustrated with me now.
He looked at me with those same murderer eyes like this morning.
And this freakin teacher is telling him everything, when she said ,"I think she is being abused" my breath hitched, I already felt him shouting at me and again smashing me on the floor.
I know everyone knowing about him being related to me is the last thing he want.
When I looked at him, I can see him clenching his jaw, his veins popping out of his hands.
As soon as that teacher left he sneered at me ,"You like creating mess for me don't you?" and I couldn't help the scared tears leaving my eyes.
I apologise but nothing,he seems to be more frustrated now.
"I'll see you at home"  he said that and  I already imagined myself on ground crying and begging for the mercy that he'll never grant me.
"attend your classes and eat something " he said throwing money at me; can't he just buy me something?.
Yesterday he got tensed only with me missing his class,he bought me things  without me even asking  for them and today he is throwing money at me and that too when I'm sick, like he is doing some charity.
Is little affection is too much to ask for?.
After my drip was done I went to my class and Rose and Frank acted all concerned, they asked why I left yesterday and why I'm late today, Frank told me he called me too,but I'm more concerned about myself.
How will I ever face him, what will he do?.
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After college I stand right under that maple tree waiting for him, usually he come on time but today he is late.
I waited for like twenty min and he didn't came, should I call him and ask?,I'll walk it's better then interacting with him at all.

I was around the bus stand, but last bus has already left ten minutes ago because of my turtle walk , guess I had to walk all the way to home.
Walking on the side I hear a honk, I got a little more to the side, he honked again, I thought someone is stalking me or trying to do something bad.
But when I turn back to look, it's Frank , "Hi pretty lady" ,he said with his cheeky smile.

"Youuu!!!!", And he started laughing "come in I'll drop you" ,he said opening his car door.
I hesitate a little, if he will see me with frank , I'll be ten feet under the ground.
"I'm not going to kidnap you ,come on grinnn", he said with little dramatic tone.
He was insisting a lot so I got in, as it'll get too late if I'll walk all the way home.
"You scared me there",I tell him and he just ruffle my hair, "you are a scry cat" ,he said in a mocking tone .

"Where to?" He asked me my adress, what should I tell him , he can't drop me home.
He is talking about class stuff for so long and all I could imagine is Mr Hutton beating me because of all the things I've doing in a row.
"Right here" I tell him to stop outside the society.
I can't risk Mr Hutton to see me with him, last time he saw me talking to him and he ....
OMG no.

"Here ?it's outside" ,he was about to complain but I imidiately got out of his car.
"Thank you Frank you are so sweet I'll give you a treat sometime",
And with that I ran off.
When I reached home, I saw 5-7 cars parked outside our house.
I walked to our main door and I can see few people sitting on sofa, but he is not there.
What should I do?
Should I go inside?
Should I stay here?.
Ahhh I'm hungry but I know he didn't tell his colleagues about this marriage so it's better to stay out ,away from anyone's attention.
I sat on swing on our backyard, I came here before when mom was here, after that I didn't really had time to.
I decided to utilise this time and did my homework, my exams are in two weeks and he already warned me that he donot compromise with results.

It's getting dark and after doing my homework ,I was talking to jacob on call, he called me about an hour ago ; I missed him a lot too.
Talking to him felt like home , really.
I didn't even realise for how long we are talking untill ,I hear some people talking.
Jacob really get along with people there , and he told me he got three girlfriends ,I bet he is lying .
Jacob , grey and I used to go to this backery; jacob asked me if I still go there ,how could I tell him, I don't go anywhere, anymore.
I go to college then home and do all the chores and repeat.
My life is nothing but work and studies now.
I didn't even get to hangout with my university friends because I'm not allowed to come home late.
" I don't really like to go there without you guys " I lied to him. What can I do more.
We were talking when I saw Mr Hutton shaking hands with someone, I don't know what this panic about but I quickly said goodbye to jacob and acted like ,I was doing nothing when he turned to me.
He is not moving, standing almost 20 feet away from me, in white formal shirt folded up to his elbow with two buttons undone. With both of his hands in pocket , he is standing there all tall and handsome, even when he is not smiling, he is so handsome.

That jaw that is always tight, I think if it hurts to smile a little or let those muscles relax a bit.
He is looking at me like he is making a choice but again like he is looking at nothingness.
I'm getting little nervous under his gaze, I grabbed my books and bag and start walking towards him; where else I'll go.
I was about to get close when he left. He went inside, I wonder what it feels like to be this silent.
He never say anything unless it's a warning, a message or scolding.
I wonder what he'll look like when he'll smile; I never saw him smiling,NEVER.
I wonder what it feels like to be loved by him; but again why I want to loved by him .
I have to realise it to myself, that it's nothing but a contract and that's why he's like this.
He is being formal, he is following this contract; nothing else.

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