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Vicky
When we were done from the Panaji sightseeing the girls made their way to our hotel and left me alone with Filip. Those assholes! It didnt click at first but then it became quite obvious with all the provicy they tried giving us. They just wanted to hook me up.
Filip was really nice to me. He was trying to know me and i was doing the same. He told a few of his stories when we went to the club in our hotel. They were pretty amusing. In short, i was having a good time and this was certainly a good change. In fact I kind of liked him.
He was funny. He had stories to tell. He had a beautiful smile. I wished I could say charming but that word was reserved.
We then headed together to the beach with our drinks. His hand met mine as we walked. It felt good to know that there was someone holding my hand.
We sat away from the place where the waves met the land. Our fingers still intertwined. The sky was navy blue with stars shining so bright, as if a clumsy angel spilled a container full of glitter on the sky. I did not talk much nor did he.
He was the perfect guy but somewhere I knew that we were not meant to be.
"You look beautiful," he said.
"You don't look bad either," I said as he chuckled.
"So how do I look, to be exact?"
"With your curly hair, your bright black eyes and your tanned skin, you look like 'the one'." Okay. What did I just say. I described him properly like I would but the last line; it wasn't meant to come out like this. It's like the weather has a weird effect on me or I suppose alcohol is messing up with my brain. Well it has to be alcohol.
He gave a smirk to my answer and leaned in to kiss me and to my surprise, I obliged. I kissed him back. Though it was a short lived kiss. Only because I pulled away.
I wasn't in my senses. And trust me the kiss was really good but I couldn't get that feeling. That spark. I just couldn't and all of a sudden realisation struck me hard and I knew it was a big mistake.
So without any other word or an explanation. I grabbed my purse and ran away. He tried to talk and follow but I dismissed him. Tears falling down my cheek because 'he' still haunted me. His face was the one I saw when I kissed Filip. How was I supposed to continue?
I went back to my room after clearing up the mess that my face was. Lucky to find that the girls were sleepy I was not interrogated about this so called 'date'.
I changed quickly and sneaked in the sheets beside Myra. I shut my eyes close but sleep wouldn't come to me, only thoughts did. Images of today. Images of Filip. Images of him. Everything just made its way in my head where I kept screaming at myself for not taking the good things that I am offered . But then I had stop this internal battle, to prevent this trip from getting ruined, because of me.
Then came the guilt. Guilt of leaving Filip without any explanation. But then I reminded myself that I was never meeting him again.

"Hello ladies," he greeted us and then looked at me, "What a beautiful surprise!"
He wore nothing but shorts and that sight was more than enough to make my knees shake.
He helped everyone get on his boat one by one and then came my turn. He held his hand forward and I gave him mine. He had a tight grip on it and pulled me on his side.
"I didn't know that you'd be here," was all I managed to say.
"Neither did I," he said plainly as my guilt level rose to its peak.
He then let my hand go. I didn't realise that we were holding hands for this long. He then stood in the middle with Myra by his side.
"Today we tick off 'Swimming with dolphins'," Myra announced.
Whoa! Wow! Dolphins! Exciting! Swimming? Not much. Knowing the obvious, the focus was on me.
"So we'll go ahead a little from where we can spot dolphins and swim with them, he said starting the motor.
The boat moved forward until Filip stopped it. The land was nowhere to be to seen. The warmth of the morning sun was soothing. We kept on waiting, trying to spot a trail of dolphins but none visible. It was mostly silent on the boat except for Myra asking a question now and then and Filip answering her.
I was sitting isolated. I don't know how to react. If I weren't on a boat in the middle of nowhere, I wouldve ran away.
I looked up to find Filip staring at me. He looks away but then walks towards me.
"I heard you are afraid of the water," he says.
"No, I'm afraid of drowning," I said. Theres never a fear of a particular thing but its consequences. People are afraid of the dark because they have a belief that something might emerge from the dark corner. Just like that I am not afraid of water or I would never take a bath.
"Well, then, you need to know that I won't let you drown," he said. I nodded. This is really awkward.
"Look," Myra pointed to her right. There we saw, dolphins! Finally!
"I assume you can swim," he said. "Go swim straight and they'll meet you. Those are the best dolphins ever. Don't be afraid or you might scare them off. I'll take her and join you."
They all jumped in the water and swam away. He then looked at me. "I am not jumping," I told.
He gave me a life vest and helped me put it on.
"Now, with this on, there's no chance that you'd drown. Even if you stay still in the water you'll float. So there's no chance of drowning."
He then jumped in the water. How is he not angry?
"I'm sorry," I told him.
"Sorry? For what?"
"Yesterday... I left you just like that.."
"That's okay, really," he told.
"No it's not. I am sorry!"
"Let me decide that, will you? Now jump! Else we'll miss the dolphins. We don't want that, do we?"
Okay, he is talking sensible things. This is it then. This vest will save me. And even if i do drown, Filip will save me. I pinched my nose tightly and before any second thoughts enter my brain i jumped. I was screaming but then Filip held me And helped me get a little stable. this is good. Its actually good. Im effortlessly floating.
"Oh My God!" i said with the happiest of my smiles.
"You did it," he said, his eyes partially covered with his wet curls. He looks adorable.
"I did it," i repeated as glad as he was.
"Now we need to swim in their direction. Come on," he said holding my hand and pulling it as i tried to imitate him.
"Yesterday.. I shouldn't have left like that. But i did. So why aren't you angry or kissed?" i asked him.
"i don't know. I suppose you didn't expect that and Im sorry because i just kissed you like that. I shouldn't have pushed things," he said.
"No, its okay. I was at fault. The alcohol was talking."
"Means you didn't mean a thing last night?"
"No! That's not what i meant,
He laughed. "Chill, it's okay. We will talk more. Go on a few more dates and if you think we are compatible, then maybe we could.. you know.. Because I really like you and Im not toying with you. I really do like you and it's not an everyday scenario for me, but when it is, it's really special."
"Wait," I said. He was taken aback by my request and looked at me with confusion.
"What happened?"
"Have you ever thought of leaving Goa," I asked.
"You asked me this question last night. I told you the answer."
"That itself means that we are not compatible. I have just started my life in Bangalore and I'm planning to live there the rest of my life."
"Oh.. Well we can talk.. Long distance?"
"You think?"
He shook his head.
"So why not have the best of all this and stay in touch as friends later?" he was a bit disappointed but then there's not much we can do.
"Sounds good," he smiled again. A fake smile probably. "Shall we?"
I nodded. In other few minutes of being dragged by Filip, we reached where all the girls were and there came the dolphins. And I swear to God, thereafter every second was worth it. There were no expectations. There was no guilt. There was just me and my dear ones and Filip, a new friend and also amazing, slimy grey dolphins.

A.n. Sorry for all the mistakes! I was typing on the phone so.... Anyway read, vote, comment! Thanks