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#9 - Getting up on a stage

Vicky
I sat on the seashore at Goa humming the tune of 'Photograph' while Filip sat beside me. I didn't realise that he was staring at me until I had caught him doing so. He didn't flinch, he continued. I stopped at once.
"What?" I asked him.
"Do you realise that you are gifted with such a melodious voice?"
I giggled. At the moment I can't even think straight. I'm like 3 shots down and he is 2 beers down. We are just two idiots sitting on the shore once again. Images of last night flashed in my brain and it just made that stupid smile vanish from my face. I knew that he wasn't going to kiss me. I barely knew him but I trusted him enough.
"What happened," he asked.
"Nothing," I shrugged while forcing a smile.
"There is something. Definitely something."
"It's really nothing. It's just me with my swings."
He faked a laugh. "Do me a favour?"
"Sure," I looked at him.
"Sing again," he said.
And I don't know why, I just did. I sang slowly and softly, just enough for both of us to hear with the sound of the waves as the background music and the stars as extra audience, and it felt good. Everything was perfect.
"Can I ask you something," he asked all of a sudden when I was done with the song.
"Yeah.."

Alisha led, Zara followed and then Myra. We were supposed to sing Blank space by Taylor Swift. And now it's my turn. I started, "so it's gonna be forever, or it's gonna go down in flames......" and it went on... And we all sang together the chorus and then split apart and it was fun. It actually was fun! I wonder why I hadn't done this before with them. Lol. This is life changing. At least for me.
We laughed after our performance, not cause we were bad, cause we really weren't bad, but because..... God knows... We just were happy. And we wanted to laugh. So we did. Once off the stage we had almost reached our table, my laughter had subsided and I just couldn't stop thinking about Filip and the night when I actually had sung something for someone for the first time ever.
"'Who is he' he had asked me," I said aloud. "I'm talking about Filip here..."
They were taken aback by my sudden topic and they just stopped where they stood and looked at me.
"I was confused as to what he was saying but I understood what he wanted to know. 'Do I look that heartbroken and pathetic that you know that I'm in love with a guy whom I can't have?' He laughed at my question. It was rather a chuckle. 'No' he said, 'you friend zoned me too soon. I don't think that if you hadn't had somebody to wait for, you would reject me. I mean, if you wanted to work things out and if you really did like me then you would've talked to me and tried to convince me to move with you, and if you took just that much of effort then maybe I would come with you to Bangalore. But you didn't cause you have someone. So my question is simple. Who is that lucky guy?' And I told him everything. A part of me believed that he deserved answers. I don't know why but it did. Maybe it's time to completely shut Aarav out. To just forget him. And consider other possibilities. Maybe I'll go back to Goa after Al's marriage. Maybe I'll see a guy at Bangalore. But I'm not up for going to Aarav because all this wait for him has killed me from inside and I don't want to die like this, so desperate in love. I want to be happy. I want a guy who will keep me happy. And I'm gonna find him. That's what I'm gonna do."
Zara and Myra gave a forced smile while Alisha had an awkward expression. "Vicky, let's go from here," she said immediately.
"What's wrong? We have to finish our hot drink, and the car.." I said.
"We need to go," she said taking a step forward and holding my hand. She then turned me around but eventually stopped. And what I saw in front of me got me stoned.
"Hie," he said. This cannot be happening. I want someone to pinch me and tell me that it's a dream. After all this time he cannot just appear in front of me, in a cafe, in the middle of nowhere.
He took a step forward and held his hand out to take mine in his, my instant reaction was to take a bigger step back which made me bump into Zara. "I'm sorry, excuse me," I said and without giving a second thought I just dashed outside the door. I could hear steps following me. I hoped it was one of the girls but it was him.
"Vicky, please talk to me," he said.
"Talk with you? What should I talk to you," I yelled, tears threatening my eyes. I hate it when I want to be angry with someone but end up having tears in my eyes.
"I'm back. Okay? I'm here now," he said.
"Whatever," I said and turned around not wanting him to see my tears.
"Oh now don't gimme your whatever. You promised to never say that to me. Do you not remember?"
"I remember very well. I also remember you promising me that you would never leave me, whatsoever," I said turning back, looking straight into his eyes, not caring if he got to see my tears.
"I'm deeply and truly sorry, please forgive me," Aarav said.
"I can't," I said taking steps backward.
"Vicky," he said softly.
I stumbled on a rock but didn't care. I can handle myself, and he needs to know that. I looked at the girls standing behind him. Alisha had the guilty look all over her face. 'I'm so sorry' she mouthed. I shook my head in disbelief and hurried to the car and shocked to find that the car was all well and the driver was taking a nap inside.
I woke him up and told him to start the engines and he followed my instructions hurriedly. The vulnerable look that I carried, no one would deny me of anything that I demand. The girls had arrived to the car. "I'm so sorry," Alisha chanted. "Stop crying," Zara said. I ran my hands through my hair. I just needed some quiet. I look straight and find that he is standing in front of me again, just with lots of distance between us.
Myra hugged me. Tight enough that even if I squirm in her hands I wouldn't be able to let go. I eventually let in. "Lets get out from here," she whispered in my ear. I nodded as I let go off her and sat in the car. The driver drove away as I looked at him stand on the road alone, his image fading as the car gained speed.

A/n the reason that I'm no more posting my WC is that I'm having a bad time with my iPad charger. I've changed like three of them till now. So I'm writing in my diary. My current total crosses 30k yay! And I'm writing a fanfic this time. My first fanfic :) so if it turns out to be good then I'm gonna put it up next! :D
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