True love doesn't just exist in fairy tales 💕

Secret boyfriend: part 1

Charlie's POV:

I'M SO STUPID!
STUPID IDIOT!
WHAT WERE YOU THINKING!?
HE PROBABLY HATES ME NOW!

Was all that my brain could process in this moment.

I'm under my covers, blinds shut, light out, phone on silent, I can't deal with the world right now.

Tori walks in, knocking my door first.

"You going to tell me what happened?"
"I- I kissed him..."
"Kissed who?"
"Nick, I kissed Nick-" I'm sitting up now.
Tori comes and sits next to me, pulling me into a hug, I want to cry, and I do. I cry.

"You need to talk to him." She looks down at me.
"What-"
"Talk to him. Explain your feelings. Properly!"
"What if he doesn't want to talk?"
"Trust me. Nick will probably come round to talk to you either way."
"I- I can't."
"You can't? What?"
"I can't speak to him- not in this state!"
"You need to get ready anyway!"
"How?"
"We're going over to Nana's house later."
"I don't know if I should go round his though!"

There's a knock on the front door, Tori looks out my window and smiles at me.
Tori is at the top of the staircase, I run downstairs and open the door.
Nick.
He's soaking wet from the rain!

"Charlie, I-"
"Nick, come in! You're soaked!"
"Yeah, haha!" He fake laughs and looks at his shoes.
I fiddle with my fingers and look up at him.

"Charlie, I'm so sorry about-"
"Nick? I didn't know you were coming over." Says mum, crossing her arms.
"Yeah! Sorry-" Nick says, trying to ease the tension.
"He's just picking up a jumper he left here last week!" I blurt out.
Nick just looks at me. I really hope he doesn't hate me! I don't want to loose him!

"You could've at least changed out of your Pjs Charlie." Mum sighs.
I catch Nick looking at my shirt, he's smiling, he looks back up and frowns.

"Let's go upstairs!" I say, wanting to talk privately.

We pass Tori on the stairs, she exchanges Nick a look of hope, he smiles.

I shut the door. This is when it begins.

"So, did you forget a jacket?" I ask, jokingly.
"Oh. I didn't check the weather before I left." He huffs.
"Idiot." We laugh. Maybe he doesn't hate me.
"So- Erm-" He stutters.
"Can I speak first?" I continue before he answers.
"I'm so sorry! I wasn't thinking properly about what I was doing, and I know you probably just went along with it because you felt pressured to because I asked, It was a stupid thing to do! And I know you probably don't want to see me EVER again, I-"
"Charlie-"
"I don't want you to feel awkward about it because it was all my fault! I shouldn't have kissed you!"
"Charlie-"
"And I know you probably don't want to talk to me ever again! Which I'd completely understand!"
"Charlie-"
"But I had to at least say sorry! A- And see if maybe-"
"Charlie-" He grabs my shoulders.
"-there's a chance we could still be friends? I don't want to lose you because I did something stupid!"
"Charlie-" He pulls me closer and tightens his grip on my shoulders.
"You're p- probably the best friend-"
He holds my chin up to his.
"I've-"
He holds my head in his hands, "Charlie-"
E- Ever"
He pulls my head towards his."
"Had-"

He pulls me into a kiss, I kiss him back.
We kiss for a while until we both pull away, hands still on each other's shoulders.
He looks down at me and stops.

"Erm- You've been sending me a lot of mixed signals lately-"

He looks me in the eyes and we start laughing.

"I'm so sorry- I'm just so sorry!" He hugs me, so I hug him back, I feel safe in his arms.
"I'm just...so sorry I ran away, I was just freaking out, like honestly, I'm having a proper full-on gay crisis! It's not that I didn't want to...you know...kiss you! I was just so confused...I've just been so, so confused... a- and I didn't expect that to happen yesterday! It's not like I didn't want to but I hadn't really psyched myself up and the Harry turns up and I wanted to stay with, but...b- but..."
His head is in his hands and he's tugging on his hair, he's really stressed about this.

"But I didn't want other people to- to see us doing that. I mean, I'm not ashamed, I'm just...it was just...I j- just need some time to figure this out...I just need a bit more time..."

He's crying, I pull him into a hug and let him cry. I hug him tight, making him look up, still with tears in his eyes, he hugs into my chest again. Neither of us move until nick starts mumbling.

"I'm sorry..."
"It's okay...It's okay..."

THIS TOOK SO LONG TO WRITE LMAO

I have a school trip tomorrow so I don't know if I'll have the energy to write Part 2
I'll try writing it as soon as I can, I'll try writing Part 2 tonight to get a head start but I need to get up REALLYYY early tomorrow since the buss leaves at 08:30 and no later, last year a kid had to stay at school because he got to school at 08:32 instead of 08:15
Anywayyy, I hope everyone is doing ok, remember you're loved, and remember to eat/drink enough x
I hope everyone has a good day/evening/night or whenever you're reading this!

-Kitkat x