Your Name

38| "You deserve honesty, openness and the entirety of my heart."

╰┈➤𝐖𝐀𝐑 𝐏𝐎𝐕*ೃ༄

I swept away by the unexpected emotions as I let my lips met P'Yin. The beating of my heart drowned out any attempt at logical thought. His soft lips held the power to transport me through our cherished memories. Each frame replaced the journey of my feelings for him like an old film.

My heart pounded. P'Yin then intensified the kiss, his palm finding a place on the side of my neck. The warmth of his touch sent shivers down my spine.

P'Yin's lips moved with a slowness. He explored the contours of my upper and lower lips separately as if he aimed to savor each passing moment.

A voice in my mind whispered, urging me to stop the reckless abandon with which I surrendered to the kiss. It was a warning. Yet, the allure of P'Yin's present eclipsed any rational thought. The walls I had built to shield my heart crumbled. It left me exposed.

As the kiss continued, time seemed to lose its grip. The boundaries between past, present and future blurred. P'Yin tilted his head slightly, deepening the kiss, his tongue probing into my mouth, seeking permission that I willingly granted. Our shared moan echoed in the room as his tongue danced with mine.

My fingers tightened around the fabric of his shirt. His kiss, a blend of sweetness and fervor left me breathless. I surrendered to the chaos of sensations coursing through my body.

"You have no idea how long I have wanted to do that," P'Yin whispered. "I love you, War. I love you so much."

My hand was still trembling slightly, found its place on P'Yin's chest. Under my touch, I could feel the rapid of his heartbeat. My own heart danced to the same rhythm.

Finally, as the kiss drew to a close, I was breathless and disoriented as if waking from a dream. The reality of what had happened settled in and I met P'Yin's gaze with cloudy eyes.

P'Yin brushed my cheek with his thumb. "I never want to hide anything from you anymore, War," P'Yin said with a tiny smile. "You deserve honesty, openness and the entirety of my heart."

"I used to fear opening up like this. Love felt like a vulnerability, a weakness. But with you, War, it feels like a strength. I have never met anyone who makes me want to be so completely myself. I love you, War. I really do."

"Phi...P'Yin..." I slowly bowed my head.

I was at a loss for words, unsure of why I had yielded to the pull of my heart. Was I being foolish for allowing myself to embrace this moment?

"I'm-I'm sorry," I responded. I swiftly rose and hurried upstairs, ignoring P'Yin's persistent calls.

Indeed, I felt incredibly stupid...

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Why did I allow the kiss to happen? Oh God...why am I so stupid...

I hugged my knees to my chest on the bed and stared into the abyss of my thoughts. "War, why did you surrender yourself so easily? You should have maintained control over your feelings!" A harsh self-scolding echoed in my mind.

My fingers danced nervously over each other. The room seemed to close in on me as I replayed the scene in my mind. P'Yin's presence lingered like an indelible mark. I couldn't shake off the overwhelming sweetness of that stolen kiss. Even after several years had passed, my feelings towards him clung to me, refusing to fade.

"What have I done?" I muttered to the empty room. The weight of my actions pressed down on me.

I traced the outline of my lips, still tingling from the ghostly touch of P'Yin's lips...