and
there's nothing I can do to change that,
even though I'd give anything to.
Once words are said
and
deeds are done
there's nothing you can do
to take them back.
If I could reverse the clock,
I'd have time stop
to tell you more that I love you,
instead of
leaving you
guessing.
I made you feel broken,
smashed by a fist
that didn't care either way,
when
all I truly wanted
was
to be loved and accepted
as I am -
and love you in return.
I guess, inside, I'm still
a little girl
who never grew up
from
the pain others inflicted.
You were
the one person
who made the hurt
worth it.
You cheered me on
until you grew out of breath
and I never
stopped to ask
if
you needed air.
You brushed aside my failures
and encouraged me to
try again.
I never stopped to ask
if you needed
anything.
Maybe I was too focused on me.
I should have been sealing
you from harm,
so you didn't feel anything
but happiness.
(Isn't that what love is?)
I should have used myself
as a shield
instead of being what
slowly, tortuously
killed.
I should have taken
your pain away
instead of opening your wounds further
with a knife I never meant to hold.
I assaulted when I should
have helped you
escape.
You've held my heart
in
the palm of your hand
from the moment
I was born -
but,
instead of being grateful,
I seized an opportunity.
"How much do I get?"
I never gave,
and now you're rotting away
because of the things
I never bothered
to say.
YOU ARE READING
To the World...(A Collection of Poems)
PoetryZelda Aurora Gabriel has been writing poetry from the time she was 13. She is now 25. Different from others her age, poetry became an outlet and a means of understanding a world that often didn't understand her. "To the World" is a compilation and a...
