James marriott x Yn (flashback)

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Tw: hyperventilation,panic attack,anxiety,shaking,struggling to breath,chest pain,dizziness,trama memories,flashback

Overview:James and Yn were filming a video with willne ,worlds most useless products video, Willne wasn't aware Yn had many triggeres some being noises some being feelings (touching). When wil shouted it triggered yn  leading to an issue James had to deal with..

James pov:
Me and My partner yn were filming a video with wil lenney
"Right jimathy here we have an egg cuber" wil said handing me the product
"Aww mate im not touching that ! I hate eggs." I complained
"Cmon lad just pick it up"
"Not a fucking chance" i got up and left
Wil PoV:
"Yn your boyfriend really is a pussy isn't he!? It's just an egg"
"Mhm" yn replied
Once I'd finished putting the egg in the cuber James still wasn't back
"Orla where did James go?" I asked concerned
"He decided to get coffee"
"Wha-" i was cut off my yn
"He's not had his coffee today i didn't have time to grab him one. He needs it or else his hormones go off balance"
"Oh.. MOVING ON!" i said Turing back to the camera "right next product"
"We have a ...." I raised my hands to take it from the camera man . Yn flinched harshly
I looked at them concerned they just looked away.
"JAMES YOU TWAT YOUR FINALLY BACK" I shouted at James as he walked back in
Yn covered their ears suddenly , i noticed their breathing picking up speed..

Yn PoV:
Wil shouted and raised his hands... this caused me to flinch and cover my ears.. another flash back. I thought I'd stopped having flashbacks to my past but clearly not. My head started pounding shouts of my parents played through my head
"Stop" i mumbled under my breath "stop" i mumbled once again
My chest began hurting as i felt my airways closing, my leg now shaking uncontrollably i grew more and more anxious , more and more trapped..
James PoV:
I'd sat back down and noticed yn has their ears covered and their breathing growing fasted
"Hey? Yn?" I tried speaking to them. I'd now clicked another flashback. I knelt down in front of them placing my hands on there shaking legs, tears from there face falling onto my hands as i softly spoke
"Yn hey babe your ok? Shh it's okay! I'm here okay no one's going to hurt you." Concern now raising in my voice
"James? WTF is happening" wil asked
"Wil shut it mate you've caused this! Your big fucking mouth shouting! How many times have i told you no to shout around yn? You've sent them into a flashback -" i felt a hand on mine . I looked up yn had my hand they were holding it tight squeezing it there grip tightening as the flashback continued "hey baby it's okay! Cmon yea your ok please babe" i spoke back as Wil left the room. "Don't.. hurt me.. please dad I'm sorry i - " yn started speaking moving there hand off mine to cover their face. I stood up and slid yn off the chair into my lap on the floor, lying them down slightly so they were resting there head on my chest. Yns hands fell back away from there face. "Babe you're safe.. it's only me okay?"
I spoke softly to them once more . The flashback wasn't over yet they were still shaking and there breathing was no slower.. it wasn't long before they would pass out.. Flashbacks are exhausting for yn.
Yn PoV:
(Your in the PoV of the flashback)
"PLEASE DAD IM SORRY" I shouted back at my dad "Don't hurt me i didn't mean it"
I felt a hand on me "STOP PLEASE YOUR HURTING ME"
"Baby I'm not.." the voice who i assumed was my dad mumbled back
"DAD YOU ARE HURTING ME STOP PLEASE I BEG YOU" I felt more tears down my face "please...dad. My chest hurts i can't take it anymore.." i started mumbling to my dad..
"Y/D/N WTF ARE YOU DOING?" My mum charged in shouting at my dad. "THEIR A KID WHY ARE YOU IN HERE WITH A KNIFE AND WHY ARE THEY BLEEDING?"
"J-ames he-lp me..." I was speaking under the tears and shaky breath while my mum continued shouting at my dad
James PoV:
Yn was talking like they were back in the situation. Every time i touched them they thought it was there dad... that's why it's so hard to stop a flashback.."Yn! Listen to my voice... you know my voice it's James"
"J-ames.." yn mumbled again.. when we started dating yn would come home with bruised and cuts they never explained why until 3 months later just before a flashback.. they'd used to beg for my help at there home.. even though i wasn't there.. it always broke my heart when they started mumbling my name..."yea yn it's James please baby it's okay believe me!" I began rubbing my hand over their chest slowly "Orla get me some water please! Now.."
a couple minutes later Orla handed me some water. Moving my hand from Yns chest i poured a bit of water over their head sheltering their eyes.. "cmon yn.. " i mumbled to myself "please baby snap back..."
Water was always a last resort as the hated the feeling of it... but this time i hadn't a choice. After pouring about a 1/4 of a glass over there head they suddenly opened their eyes , their breathing fast paced but slowing a tiny bit "James?" Yn spoke tears still in their eyes..
"Hey hey hey baby I'm here.." i grabbed their hand."breath baby your okay it's okay."
"James i-i" tears began falling from their eyes again slowly soaking my jeans. "Yn shh your safe just breath in..
Out.. in... out.."
Yn PoV:
James was here... i didn't know why.. or how I'd gotten on the floor in James lap.. but it felt comfortable.. other than my chest hurting and James voice i couldn't feel or hear anything...
"James.. what happened why does it hurt?" My breathing sounded fast? Maybe? I couldn't tell
"It was a flashback babe.. your okay now I've got you" James responded gently moving me further up his chest..
"But how?"I'd not had a flashback for 4 months and now i had?
"Wil shouted.. it just triggered you.. you have been on edge for a while now it was just a matter of time until it happned.." James said rubbing his hand over my painful chest. "Ow" i flinched slightly..
"Baby I'm sorry i didn't mean to hurt you!" He moved his hand away instantly.. "no it's okay my chest just hurts a lot  and i breathed a bit deep it wasn't your fault" i reassured him..
James PoV:
"Yn?" I spoke asked.."are you okay!? If your chest hurts that's not good.." sometimes after yn had a flashback they'd experience pain when their dad used to hurt them . It was never easy to get rid of but often i could lessen the pain..
"I'm fine James" yn spoke trying to get up but failing immediately "fuck sake" yn said annoyed at themself
"Hey babe you're not going to be able to get up so fast. Especially if your experiencing relapse pain" i kissed yn on the head before carefully picking them up trying my best not to hurt them.. yn mumbled the odd "ow" as i walk out past Wil to my car parked on wilnes driveway. I carefully sat yn down in the back before driving home.

Time skip now inside the house:
Yn PoV:
James had carried my inside and I'd told him i just wanted to sleep.. the flashback had tired me out so much!
"James.." i said as he placed me down on the bed..
"Yea you okay?" He asked .
"Can you stay please? I'm worried it will happen again.."
"Yea sure.." James got into bed next to me
James PoV:
Yn settled down my arm around them .
"Yn? Does anywhere still hurt?" I asked concerned still
"Mhm but it's whatever" they replied
"Baby what hurts?"
"My chest is the worst but my head is a close second.."
"That's not good.. if it's still bad later when you wake up we might have to get some of your old meds again.."
"No! Please not them....." yn replied upset in their voice..
"No promises" i replied rubbing Yns back as they snuggled into my chest again...

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1429 words!
Wow who knows what happened to Wil and James friendship lol!
Another chapter coming tonight hopefully!

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