Prohibited Devotion

Twenty

I am such writers block with this story! Ideas welcome!

She wasn't sure why she was allowing herself to be so vulnerable around him, maybe because he knew her deepest secret, maybe because he showed her affection but she'd never been like it before, so open to disrespect.

She spent the last three days she had at Derek's working out, pushing her body to its limits. She knew what Derek used to be into. The skinny girls with huge boobs and asses. She knew she couldn't compare. She was petite but her boobs smaller, a good size but not the huge ones she knew Derek used to get shoved in his face.

He had been working so much he barely noticed, she knew staying here the week would be a mistake. He had been awful to her even if hadn't meant it. 

He used the terms 'my girl' and 'girlfriend' as if it meant Meredith was a trophy. He hadn't shown her much respect in the time they'd known eachother.

He'd been nice to her, he had helped her but it had been too much too soon, they hadn't even been together when it all happened.

Derek walked into his bedroom as Meredith packed her case, his face lightly dropped as he realised she would be leaving.

"I'm sorry I haven't been the best"He admitted as he held her from behind.

"We didn't say this would be easy, you've never been with someone. I am willing to be patient but for us to work we need our space. Derek the other day was alot, a girl you'd slept with flaunting it and then your sudden outburst. I just need some time at home now. To think about everything and process what has happened."She kissed the skin of his arm lightly.

"You know I promise I will be better.  I promise I will prove to you how much I want you okay"He kissed the base of her neck softly.

"I'll believe it when I see it Shepherd." She shoved the last of her clothes away before zipping up her case. "I will call you when I am home okay"She turned in his arms, of course he was sad she was slightly but she needed her own time and space.

"I will look forward to your call princess, I will miss waking up to you though" He admitted as she kissed his lips.

"I will miss that as well but we have plenty of time, now I changed your sheets then rolled in them wearing perfume and naked for you" Derek shook his head with a laugh.

"You are the best, drive safe"He carried the case to the elevator where they parted with a deep meaningful kiss.

She enjoyed her drive home, back to her own space. She sang to her radio and planned getting Loki the next morning.

The cold air hit her the moment she entered, she turned on the heating and dragged her case up the stairs to her room. Derek didn't answer her call so she sent him a picture of her in her room wearing his shirt and a pair of shorts 

I'm home handsome

 She placed everything that had been washed away and threw the rest in her laundry basket. She changed her own bedsheets before taking the basket down with her.

She'd been away a week and the place was still messy from when she'd been sick, so she spent hours cleaning. Washing, dusting, hoovering and every other possible thing. 

She loved having a nice home, it was something she found joy in. With a spray of air freshener everything looked almost normal again. The only thing missing now was Loki.

She had just placed her last load of washing in the machine when he responded, of course it was hours later but she didn't mind.

Sorry beautiful, fell asleep in bed. Miss you. You look hella sexy. 

She giggled lightly 

Thank you, I am having a bath soon just cleaning. xox

She placed her phone down again and continued with everything she needed to do. She had missed her home, her own comfort and space. 

Once everything was done she checked her phone, knowing it was still early she had a small dinner just a sandwich and fruit pot she picked up on her way home with a bottle of water. She needed to go shopping the next day.

At only 7 she locked the doors and windows to retreat to her bedroom. She lit a candle and selected a true crime series to watch after a bath. 

Soaking in her own bath salts, using her own body care and skin lotion made her feel better even though she wasn't trying.

She only wore a thin black cotton bralette and black cotton shorts that rode up her ass once she'd dried her hair and crawled into bed.

Feeling cheeky she called Derek, smiling when his face appeared.

"Are you still in that bed?"She giggled. Derek nodded with a chuckle.

"Someone looks all sexy and fresh" He commented as he laid on his back.

"I am, look at what I am wearing"She gave him a full vision leaving him with his mouth wide open.

"Fuck baby. You really are a fucking Devil." He shook his head with a smirk.

They spoke for around an hour before they said goodbye, Meredith snuggled into her own sheets, laughing at random instagram vidoes before watching her program. 

She knew she wanted something with Derek, she knew that the moment she left him. She also knew they wouldn't end up happy if she had stayed much longer. But now she felt positive, ready to concour the world by his side.