To: Cassiope@gomail.com
From: Ash10@gomail.com
Subject: The rollercoaster of feels
Cass,
I was down, I was up, I was thrown for a loop. What a day.
So, I know why he hates Christmas. And it was heartbreaking. I don't think I can win the bet. I guess I can count freezing today as the official start to my training for January 1st.
Brr.
I have no idea where I stand with Rowan. I think we almost kissed, but we were interrupted and the moment was lost. And then Rowan was lost.
He got a call from Hannah. She needed help and he went running.
I'm not upset about it, I swear. I know she is super important to him, and I would never try to get in the way of that. His anxiety skyrocketed when he got off the phone. I've never seen anyone but me look like that. Specifically, Ash: Brazil Edition. But it was good to see how fast he was there for her. Nothing could have stopped him from getting to her.
I hope someday someone treats me that way.
He really opened up to me today, and I feel bad not telling him the truth about me. I just don't know how. How could he tell me what he told me today when I didn't even ask? Where do you find that courage? Oh my god Cass, am I just going to have to come right out and tell him everything? I don't think I can. I don't think I can face what I find if I unleash that beast.
But he'll hate me if I never share my secrets. There's already too much imbalance between us. I'm not made for a small town if everyone's going to have to know all of my business.
Feel free to give me a good ol' fashioned spirit guide slap to the head to help me figure this out.
Ash
YOU ARE READING
Can't Love Christmas
RomansA young woman tries to escape her past by moving to a new town and bets a renowned Christmas-hating local that she can get him to fall in love with Christmas. 85-90,000 words