Can't Love Christmas

December 27 - 10:05pm

To: Cassiope@gomail.com

From: Ash10@gomail.com

Subject: I think I am 80% powdered sugar at this point

I have made too many cookies in the past week. It's almost disgusting.

As much as I love baking with my family, there was just something missing compared to my time with Rowan. Looking back, it might be flirting. I think he was flirting with me.

And I was stressed about Brittany!

I mean, I know there has been nothing going on recently with Brittany, and it's not like there's anything going on with us either, but still. I want his attention.

None of this matters though. I need to let it go.

Ryan and Reese have definitely upped their baking skills since I last baked with them. Reese in particular was really getting the hang of the dough he made. I'm so proud of them. I really do miss them. Maybe I can convince them to move west and be closer to me! There's really good Colleges and universities out here. I should start dropping hints. Goodness knows they've been dropping enough to me.

They've gotten in my head. Rowan probably didn't flirt with me. It's just Rowan being Rowan.

Ugh. I have an absurd mess in this house though. The sugar has literally become one with the carpet. It will never come out. There were too many people walking around with stuff sticking to their socks and it's just a mess. I don't mean to sound bad, but I kinda can't wait for them to go. I just want my space back.

Soon enough they'll be gone and I'll miss them again. Apparently I just can't be happy.

Besides, Christmas is over. There's nothing left for me to do with Rowan. He can just go back to normal life too.

What will my normal life look like now?