My life on crack at 2 am

fml 2

MY COMPUTER FUCKING HIBERNATED ITSELF FOR NO REASON

AND I EMAILED THE SCHOOL COUNSELOR BUT FUCKING FORGOT TO SIGN THE SIGNATURE LIKE PEOPLE KEEP TELLING ME TO DO FML

I HATE THIS

I HATE EVERYTHING

STRAWBERRIES GOT TO GO TO THE FACS ROOM DURING ROCK TIME TO TALK WITH ME AND MIDNIGHT EVEN THOUGH SHE DOESNT EVEN TAKE FACS

AND MY ROCK TIME TEACHER WONT EVEN APPROVE A PASS TO THE FUCKING COUNSELOR BECAUSE IM FUCKING LOSING SLEEP OVER SHIT

i fucking hate my sona but i cant fix her

every one else has cool sonas and mine scuks and the name is cringe

FUCK EVERYTHING I MIGHT AS WELL REBRAND ALL MY SOCIAL MEDIAS

what should i name myself

orca????

stop i just googled mental breakdown and some of the symptoms match what im going through??????? if it is then fml

symptoms i might be having???????????????????????

(signs that one is imminent)

1- losing interest in hobbies (....i dont really have any hobbies (i dont have a life)) (i dont want to go to band anymore) (i skipped dnd today>????) (oh wait also i scrapped a bunch of lore oopsies) (and im actually selling characters?? never thoguht i'd do that)

2- worrying excessively (whenever Midnight comes out of PE i wonder how she survived???)

3- easily angered (this is me all the time oopsies)

4- difficulty managing obligations (i dont want to fucking practice or go to band anymore)

5- isolating or withdrawing from otheres (ig not really?????? i just dont want to talk to anyone?? and i dont talk when my other friends are talking to Midnight because i see her a lot and its not fair they get to see her less) (also because Chevy (I think that's what i called her previously?? or maybe it was Popcorn) and Artsy yelled at me because im always talking to midnight) (i cried) (i apologized its fine)

6- unable to cope with changes?? (idk man) (i fucking hate shcool)

7- low motivation

ok now the acutal symptoms

1- sleep issues (probably just jetlag,,)

2- thoughts of self-harm or suicide (not serious dw) (idk but when i was smaller my mom told me not to watch shit on youtube because what if there was a video about peppa pig encouraging kids to slit their wrists???????) (yt kids actually messed up) (also one time my mom lectured me about suicide and she was like "dont hurt yourslef dont destroy yourself" so honestly i think she's be mad + sad)

3- low energy (????????????????? i mean idont want to do shit anymore)

4- mood swings (idk if this counts because i just get happy around my friends (mostly Midnight or Stars tbh) and then i just tired the rest of the time?? maybe its a persona???)

5- crying spells (sometimes i cry when i type these chapters out) (also the weird crying thing last night)

wHY am i fucking crying rn

6- stomach issues (...idk what they meant by this>? but like my stomach has been hurting more but i think its because ive been eating too many altoids)

7- headaches

8- emotions feeling out of control

9- feeling purposeless

eating dove chocolate rn and i hat etheir stupid quotes

"throw kindness around like confetti!!"

girlypop has it occurred to you im busy tryingt o get through my own shit first

and also my shcool is full of fucking idiots i cant deal

ok so my mom wanted me to wash the soybean sprouts and after she wanted me to dry them like in a basket

well because the sink was full, she just told me to put the basin in the rice cooker bowl thingy and then it tipped when i went to get a basket

then she got mad because she wanted me to get the basket beforehand and because i should've kept a hand on it

then she was happy again when she asked me abt the tofu (bc she got the soft kind instead of the medium-firm)

like?? moodswings??