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gay story time

TW: talk of suicide attempts 

amazing title, I know.

so, story time (also, it took me five minutes to figure out how to spell story)

A little while ago I went to my best friend's house for her birthday and to meet her two friends from her school and OH MY FUCKING GOD IT WAS AMAZING. so, first, I met them, and their fake names will be, (took me a while to think of them) Melody and Ava. So Melody and I were basically the same person, we like the same music and books and have the same kinda personality. 

we played 20 questions (we videoed it so we would remember it because we were slightly drunk) and Ava has literally no filter and was like "Alex is really fucking hot." and I was like "You too."  and she tried to kiss me, and I was like "you're drunk, I'm not kissing you." (she's actually such a light weight though, we were one shot in) and then she kept trying to kiss me and flirt with me, and I didn't do anything because I'm not a creep taking advantage of someone while they're drunk.

 then we started being more serious and were talking about mental disorders and stuff like that, and I'm the therapist friend and we just ranting to each other and Harps said "isn't this a bit serious." and Ava was like "I literally have tried to kill myself, this is fine." and I said "same." and so that conversation spiraled into Ava passing out on the couch, me bouncing off the walls and Harps and Melody trying to calm me down. we all eventually sat on the couch pull out bed thing and then Harps went to her bed and Ava passed out on top of me and Melody and I were talking and then I must have fallen asleep because i woke up holding Ava's hand. Also, Ava is bi  so, I have a chance if Hecate keeps being weird. Ava is also SO PRETTY and fun, like I don't know what to do.

but also shit happened, and I'm kinda scared so Melody now, but she's so nice.