Me!

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so, one thing about my very religious white straight catholic school is that there is a hidden underground gay society we built under the school and we convert people to the ways and life style of homos down there, we are why your child are gay, sorry, not sorry, we are why your childs want to cut their hair off and use they/them pronouns or think that they are a boy, of course it's not just your child being queer in the first place and you forcing them to repress their feelings and emotions (are those the same thing?)we force them to sit in front of a tv while playing videos and a slideshow of queer people, slowly brainwashing the childs into being gay. how dare your childs use pronouns or like the same gender, they should very obviously fit socities' norms and be "more like the other girls/boys" or "be normal"

IM KIDDING, YOU BE WHOEVER YOU WANT TO BE

and holy shit that was meant to be a single sentence joking about people thinking exposing kids to queer people makes them queer.

but there is about 30-50 queer people at my school out of the 950ish people there, so were a bit of a minority (I hope I'm using that word correctly) and so of course I get singled out for it, and my favourite thing I definitely don't dread all week is school swimming, when I have to get changed in a huge room with cubicles and a bunch of people I barely know, with only three friends and gender dysphoria in my togs. also, its really, really awkward because the stall door for the cubicles are super low, and I'm ridiculously tall for my age so I can see over them, its awful i never purposely do it and I just hate it. 

so this girl who prides herself on being an "ally" without realising I was in the cubical behind her says for everyone to see "we don't need anymore people like Elizabeth (my dead name) here" so of course I'm stupid and I'm like "people like me?" and then she full on was like "oh fuck off, you know what I mean"

BITCH WHAT THE FUCKKKKKK

I'm probably being stupid, but that really hurt my feelings (I know I sound like a 3 y/o) but anyway-

also I have recently realised I don't have a personality, my entire personality is having autism, being gay and liking riordanverse. so y'know that's fun

I also have recently had entire mental breakdown and evaluated every single choice I have pretty much ever made and now I'm pretty sure I'm a demiboy (he/they) and bisexual/polysexual, but I honestly don't know

anyway, I hate myself so much right now, so that's funnnnnnnnnnn

ok, bye everyone!! have a great day/night!!!