Me!

✨high school friendships are hard✨

TW: talks of not eating, being hit, sexual assault and all caps typing down the bottom 

ok so I've had the same best friend for 9 years and then randomly she just stops hanging out with me  (because I was being a dickhead) but younger Alex was smart and invested in other friends, so I've had my other best friend since grade 3, so five years give or take, and then I have my ✨best friend✨ I love her so much platonically, were basically the same person, we both have an African parent, have the same fandoms, ship the same ships, do the same sports, and think the same stuff at the same time. we even work together, but she's still in training so I never see her :(((

but then I have that friend. we all know that person, they're perfect in every way, they're tall, fit, skinny, super pretty, are the best at every sport they do, they're smart as fuck, they have problems at home so they're super mature and of course they're cis/hetero and everyone loves them, they're super popular. yeah, that person is one of my closest friends, my mum loves here more then me and I'm always compared to her. 

then you have the crackhead/s I have two in my group, they're also really smart but they're just fun to be around

but guess what!

I made friends!!!!

but the problem is:

my other friends don't really like them because they say they're too gay and I sat with the "gay" friends at lunch today and my other friends got upset.

and they're super nice and they're really relatable, let's call them Jade and Noah. Jade is bi and a demigirl, Noah is trans ftm and straight, but they're both so lovely and today we were in the undercroft (it's just under a building where the tuckshop is, it's kinda like an outdoor cafeteria but ✨Australian✨ and it was so loud I put my hands over my ears, but because I had to be social I was still like nodding and stuff and Jade just goes, "Alex? do we need to move? is it too loud?" and I don't know why but the concern was just so lovely but I was just like "nah, she'll be right" (another Aussie thing everyone says) and then I wasn't eating and Noah was like "nah, bro you look good but you need to eat" and I was like "yeah, nah, I'll just give it to *other friend who likes to eat my food*" and he was like "nope" and then sat with me for an hour while a ate 4 grapes. 

and then I have other friends, because my very best friend goes to another school, she made other friends and then matched me up with them (I love them so much, omfg they're so lovely) and they're the same type of chaotic as me so I was happy and I was explaining my sexuality and gender to them and one girl was like "what's it called when you like boys and girls?" and I  was like "bisexual" and she just so casually was like "oh, I guess I'm bisexual then" and yes, i am giving her my bi flag and other decorations.

also, omfg Noah and Jade today when we were swimming I put my hair in a teeny tiny man bun and Noah was like "you look like a surfer dude called Chad"

I'm not a surfer dude, but I was called a dude so I'm happy

also why is high school so hard??

like not only do I have to math and English and French and theater and geography and science and religion, I have to pay attention and try not to be beaten up that badly from both kids at school and my parents, its hardddddd

but oh well

also, fun times, my sexual assaulter is going to school and is in my class and of course then she has to sit next to me in the seating plan. and also, I got so many comments on "just tell someone" 

SHE ASSULTED ME 3 YEARS AGO AND I NEVER TOLD ANYONE, IM NOT TELLING ANYONE NOW

anyway, that's pretty much it!!

oh, my school updated our laptops so I can't go on Wattpad, but they also blocked battery saver, like low power mode.

WHAT WAS THE POINT OF THAT??

I GOT IN TROUBLE BECAUSE MY LAPTOP DIED AND I WAS LIKE "well I can't use battery saver, can I???"

ok, that's it, have a great day/night!!!