My Little Penguin

Chapter Fourteen

Catt's POV

I mentally bashed my face into my steering wheel as the previous events ran through my mind.

"I'm so confused! She must have wanted me to kiss her. Right?! She did tell me she was a lesbian after all and it's not a secret that I'm gay." It wasn't until I received a strange look from a lady walking her dog, that I realized I was saying what I was thinking,and by the distance of the woman, I must have been screaming it. I started blushing furiously. I gave the lady a nod and sped up a little bit. In 5 more minutes, I arrived at the store.

Milk, Baby formula, Diapers

I strolled through the empty isles until I had gathered all of what she needed along with a pack of light bulbs for my house and an eyeliner pencil.

I got up to the counter and set the items on the desk, I looked over the wide variety of cigarette boxes behind the counter. I told myself I would try and stop smoking but the last few weeks have been hard on me, starting a new school and all this shit with Becca. I pulled my ID out of my wallet.

"Can I have two Marlboro 200, please?" The woman behind the counter gave me a disapproving look.

"You got ID?" her voice was very southern and it made her bright orange lipstick and curly mop of hair seem fitting. I nodded and handed it to her. She glanced up at me, comparing the picture on my driver's license to my face. She then nodded and handed me two little white boxes with blue stripes across the top and my ID back.

After bagging up the items for the baby, she gave me another disapproving look and I tried as quickly as I could to get back to my car.

Pulling open my car door, and climbing inside, the first thing I did was tear off the plastic wrap on the little box and pulled one cigarette out. I sighed, remembering when I had only these little death sticks to comfort me. I grabbed an old lighter out of the glove compartment and lit the end on fire, inhaling the smoke, the familiar burn filling my lungs. I then blew the smoke back out and watched as it formed odd shapes and swirls in front of me. I smiled and took another drag before pulling out of the parking lot, returning to Becca's house.

*At Becca's house*

I grabbed the plastic bag of Becca's things out of the backseat before getting out of the car, tossing my cigarette on the ground and smothering out the flame with the bottom of my vans.

Fixing my hair, I opened the door quietly, knowing Asher was probably sleeping. I walked inside, expecting to see Becca on her phone or something but I was surprised to see Zanaiya perched on the island counter in the middle of the kitchen and Michael sitting on a stool and Becca with her back to me leaning against the counter.

None of them noticed that I had come back so I walked timidly toward them, feeling out of place with their higher ranks. I set the plastic bag beside Becca's hand and she jumped in surprise, causing the others to avert their attention to me. Michael looked me over for a second, turned to Becca, gave her an unreadable look and then looked at me again.

"You're the new girl right?" His voice was deep but not as intimidating as the first time I heard it. I nodded and looked at the floor. Becca must have noticed that I felt awkward because I felt her small hand wrap around my left shoulder. I looked up at her and mouthed the only words I could think of.

'I'm sorry.' She nodded and gave me a reassuring smile. I looked up at Zanaiya and her award winning, contagious smile was spread across her face.

"Any friend of Becca's is a friend of mine." If it was humanly possible, she smiled even wider and walked over to me, pulling me into a hug. I blushed and hugged her back, smiling like an idiot. She pulled away and returned to her place across the kitchen. 

Becca was rummaging through the bag from the store, pulling out the things she asked for. All of a sudden, a horrified look flashed across her face, a twinge of panic twisted my stomach. 

"What? What's wrong?" I asked her. She looked at me and pulled out one of my boxes of cigarettes. 

"C-Catt y-you smo-smoke?" I felt my cheeks burning and nodded, reaching for the box. 

"I didn't mean to leave it in there. I meant to leave it in my car. Is it that big a deal to you?" I asked, feeling embarrassed. She handed it to me before answering.

"It's not a big deal if you like the idea of dying before you're 30..." I was surprised when she didn't stutter.

 I knew this would happen. I finally figure out that the girl of my dreams is a lesbian and I even get to kiss her and then I fucking ruin everything! I knew my guilt would reflect from inside and show all over my face, my dad did the same thing when he would try and put on a smile for me but his face showed his true feelings.

She noticed my expression and her face changed before she pulled me into her arms and whispered in my ear, still not stuttering. 

"I'm sorry, I just don't want anything to happen to you." She told me and a light pink covered my cheeks. She took a piece of my hair and twirled it between her fingers, planting a kiss on my cheek.

"Hey Becca, can I ask you a question?" I asked, pulling out of her arms and looking her in the eyes and then to the floor.

"Of course." She answered, moving a piece of hair out of my eye.

"Uhm...Would you want to be my girlfriend?" I built myself up, assuming the worst. I glanced up at her again and saw an enormous smile spread across her pretty face. I could tell she would say yes but I couldn't bring myself to form any words so I looked at the floor again. That was when she lifted my chin, looked me in the eyes and pulled my face to hers, connecting her lips to mine. Electricity shot through me just like the first time. I kissed her back, only to have her pull away.

"I would love to be your girlfriend, Catt."

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OOOHHH bunch of plot twists much?! Lol I love it. Becca and I were just talking about how the story was moving really slow but if you think about it, these 14 chapters are all a spread of like 2 or 3 days xD. Oh whale. I hope you guys like it. And btw in 13 the author's note, pfftt Bear is just jelly that she doesn't have a girlfriend as awesome as me to make out with all day long lmao. Love you guys! Comment your thoughts on the story!

~Kitty