My Little Penguin

Chapter Eighteen

Catt's POV

"Okay, let's go to sleep penguin." She smiled and pulled me upstairs. We walked up all the same stairs to get to Asher's room but instead of turning into the jungle themed room we kept walking down to the end of the hallway and into a room that was painted a pastel purple colour. I took a look around and got the same sensation I got from looking around my room. There were band posters. Everywhere. A smile spread across my face, there really was a whole other side of Becca that no one else saw.

I was broken out of my trance when Becca pulled open one of her drawers, still speaking in her short sentences she said "Zee's clo-clothes, y-you pi-pick." I smiled and walked over to her and the drawer. deciding that i would look in the drawer in a minute. I pulled her into my arms, her face going straight to my chest. I gave the top of her head a confused but amused look.

"Do I smell good or something?" I asked remembering this morning, trying so hard to be more than slightly decent for when I saw her. I changed my shirt seven times with different perfumes on them that I never had a reason to wear.

In that moment, I heard her inhale deeply and then look up at me and nod. I couldn't help but laugh. She smiled and spoke into my chest "C-comfy." 

I giggled and lifted her chin so she was at eye level with me. Her cheeks turned a light pink and she clasped her bottom lip in between her teeth. The sight sent my stomach into tiny knots. She moved her arms from her sides and attempted to wrap them around my waist. I got the familiar uneasy feeling and moved her arms to my shoulders. Before she could question, I smashed my lips to hers.

Her hands that were hanging loosely around the back of my neck were now tangled in my dark hair and the front of her body flush against mine. I knew that in one swift movement I could have her on the bed and underneath me but I knew she was tired. I pulled away slowly, the feeling of her lips still clear on my own. She looked me, her pale blue irises now a green colour, her cheeks flushed and her lips slightly swollen. I smiled at her appearance.

"Have I told you lately that you're beautiful?"I asked, a blast of confidence shooting through me. She blushed a deep red and shook her head. I smirked and kissed her forehead. "Well you are. The most beautiful creature I've seen." She smiled a big toothy grin and blushed even deeper.

"T-thank you." I put one finger over her lips and smiled. 

"I know you're sleepy. Go lay down and I'll go change." She nodded and walked over to the bed and layed down while I opened the drawer and looked through the pajamas. There were tons of shorts that were really short. The uneasy feeling returned as I realized that there weren't any pants. I started to panic on the inside. 

"Hey baby, do you know where she might have some pants?" She shook her head and I sighed in defeat. I plastered a fake smile on my face and grabbed a tight blue t shirt and a pair of shorts that I knew wouldn't protect me from the truth.

 I walked down the hallway to the bathroom and emptied my pockets. I slipped the shirt on easily, it was peeling my skinny jeans off my legs that caused me the most grief. I got them off and slipped on the shorts that made my ass look way bigger and revealed the one thing I wanted to keep a secret from Becca. The thick red lines that covered most of my legs was a depressing sight. The most recent ones were the worst. Bright red and blood that dried around them and in little lines that dripped away from the wound. There were hundreds. The oldest ones were a faded pink colour that had scarred over long ago. 

Tears started to form behind my eyes but I wouldn't let them spill over. I had to be strong and I had to be there for Becca. I took a deep breath and carried the bundle of clothes that I wore over in a ball that hung in front of my thighs. 

Becca's bedroom door was wide open, the way I left it. I walked in and saw my girl laying under the covers with her phone in front of her face. I continued to hold my clothes in front of my legs when she set her phone on her stomach and smiled at me. I smiled back and layed sat on the bed beside her, pulling the covers over my legs before throwing my clothes onto the nearby chair. I let out a sigh of relief. She looked at me and put her phone on the nightstand then, layed her head on my shoulder and wrapped her arm around my torso.

She sighed contently and slid her hand up and down my stomach, the t shirt hugged every part of my torso. Her small hand slid from the bottom of my rib cage to the hem of my shorts. I panicked on the inside but didn't move except to pull her closer to me. Her hand went over the hem and onto my leg, I squirmed slightly but her hand slipped right over one of my scars. 

I felt her eyes widen and she sat up and yanked the blanket off, revealing me before I even knew what was happening. She took in the appearance of my legs and gaped. I tried to get the blanket back from her but she held it with a death grip. Her stare intensified and I silently begged for her to say something so I would know what she was thinking. 

I gulped and whispered. "Becca please say something..."

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OOHH cliffhanger! Catt self harms?! Whaaa?? I know right lol anyone freak? I did and I wrote it. cx comment your thoughts? Pretty please? Hope you guys love it <3

~Kitty