The Fault In Our Stars

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40. Its Your Fault.

"So there's more?", Siddharth  asked, increduled.

Avneet  shook her head. "There's nothing more but there are many things that I want to say.", she replied.

"Go on, I wanna know everything.", the older whispered.

"Okay." Avneet took a deep breath.

"Wait!", Taehyung interrupted. "Why did you lie to me about the abortion?" The question has been bugging him everyday. "You could've talked to me, asked me if I was serious... Why did you have to lie to me?", he asked.

"I don't know... I was overwhelmed, my mind wasn't letting me breathe. Your words 'we can't keep the baby' kept ringing in my head.", she whispered. "My heart refused to believe that you will say something so absurd for our baby."

"I am sorry for that.", Siddharth apologized. That was one thing he knows he will regret his whole life. "I should have been more careful with that. Shouldn't have just dumped my opinion on you right after knowing the truth--"

Avneet's eyes watered. "Yes, you should be. You should be fucking sorry for that!", she yelled. "You don't know how much those words hurt me, Siddharth."

The older bit his lips. "I'm s-sorry.", he whispered. He can't even imagine being in Avneet's shoes.

I mean, imagine being in love with a person and accidentally getting pregnant, which is no one's fault. And then, as soon as you tell them about your pregnancy, you hear that 'you can't keep the baby'.

How can anyone be calm?

Avneet sobbed, her tears coming out uncontrollably. "I was so hurt. Y-you didn't care about our baby just because we didn't have money? Why, Siddharth? Why? Why did you do that?"

"Avni! No!" Siddharth shook his head desperately denying the truth. "That's not it"

"Then what was it?!", Avneet questioned angrily. "What was it, huh?"

"I-"

"Who would you choose if I ask you to choose now? Being singer or being Ishaan's dad?"

Siddharth looked at her in disbelief. What kind of question was that but he replied to her nonetheless.

"Of course, Ishaan. Nothing matters more than him! Absolutely nothing.", he said as if it was the most obvious thing in the world.

Which for him, actually was.

"Even if you have to leave being a famous singer and all the money and fame?"

"I will." Siddharth firmly nodded his head. "My son is more important to me than anything, even being famous."

Avneet let out a humorless laughter.

"Then why wasn't it this way almost four years ago?"

Siddharth stilled. He froze completely.

"Why didn't you choose Ishaan, your son, your baby, four years ago without an ounce of doubt? When you had nothing?"

Siddharth looked down. His mind was running round in circles.

"Why did you have your whole life in front of you but you couldn't make a small place for my baby in it?

"Why now?", Avneet asked again, "Why now when you have everything in the world? But not when you had nothing, Siddharth?"

Siddharth let his tears escape his eyes and roll down his cheeks.

He would be lying if he said that wasn't the case. He had, initially, picked up being a singer over their baby.