Torn / Kylo|Ben x Reader

•caught out•

You woke up to the sun shining through your window, cascading your room in a warm haze as you slowly opened your eyes. You winced at the light shining through and rolled over. You couldn't be bothered to get up and close the curtains. You forgot to do it last night.

You glanced at your phone before reaching out to grab it. On your Lock Screen was five missed calls and numerous text messages from Kylo asking if you were ok and if you got home ok and that he was sorry.

You opened them and scrolled through the various messages and sighed. You should message him, even though he would be able to see you were in your apartment considering he had you on 'Find my iPhone'.

You texted back a simple I'm fine message before putting it back down and wiping at your eyes. You cringed at how sticky your face felt due to all of the tears you shed last night. You hadn't even taken your make up off when you got home. You just stripped and climbed into bed.

You scrolled through your socials for a little, your eyes widening when you also saw messages from Rey and Rose asking if you were ok.

You couldn't message them. You were sure Ben would've told them everything by now, so there would be no use messaging back. You knew the group would hate you after all this. And you didn't blame them.

What you did to Ben was beyond unforgivable. You were a terrible person for doing what you did, especially to him.

Your phone began to ring and you jumped out of your skin as you weren't expecting it. It was not even nine am yet.

But to no surprise, it was Kylo who was calling you.

You let it ring out. You weren't in a talking mood yet. You were exhausted still. You wanted to roll back over and fall back asleep. But when he rang a second time, you knew he wouldn't stop until you answered.

With a huff you answered and put your phone to your ear, sitting up in bed and stretching. "What." You said thickly.

"Would be nice if you'd answer me." Kylo's voice was like molasses. Thick and smooth. You could tell he was tired too.

"Sorry. Maybe if you weren't such a dick I would." You said bluntly. You were still pissed off at him, but you did miss him.

You heard him grunt in amusement. You could practically see that tired smirk on his lips just from the sound of him.

"I know you're mad, Sweetheart. But I think you and I both know that it wasn't my place to tell you about it." He mumbled. "You did it to yourself, letting it go on for this long."

You groaned. You hated he was right. But you didn't like hearing it. You knew he wasn't being cruel. He was being completely honest.

"I know." You sighed. "I'm sorry."

"Don't be. I understand. It was a pretty fucked up night." He said through a yawn. You hated the way you melted at his words. You don't think you'd ever get used to the softer side of Kylo. You had grown to know the callous and arrogant attitude that it always surprised you when he was tender and understanding.

"Yeah." You said softly. "Are you ok?" You asked.

"Mhmm," he hummed tiredly. "Are you?"

"I think so." You said. "I just feel terrible about everything. Especially for Ben. He doesn't deserve any of this." You sighed and sat up in bed, resting your phone on your chest so you could put him on speaker.

"I know. He doesn't." Kylo mumbled. You knew he felt just as terrible as you did. He was his brother after all. He had worked so hard to mend the relationship with him, and now this has all come to light, their relationship will never be fixed again.