if only..

chapter 7- its only for safety right?..

       TW: Yandere themes, Blood, Attempted SA, SA, knife/bo staff, cuss words, suicidal thoughts

   "Why leave me Y/N? Im everything a gal could dream of having" He whispers in my ears as he licks the sweat off of me. I shiver. The tip of his tech bo that was carved to have the tip of the knife, grazed upon my soft neck. He giggles, almost stimming honestly. 

         "My brothers are such dumb dumbs, they can never understand anything I say to them. Even if it comes to emotions, that i'm normally not good at" 

            He sighs as he smashes his lips onto mine, Donnie drops his bo staff but quickly wraps his hands around my wrists. Holding me to the wall, I look away, shutting my eyes tightly closed.

           "please.." I begged "not again..." 

 he laughs at my pleads and smiles as he rubs his face in my chest. 

           "Im not like them dear, because this time you will love it" He coos me as I slowly pulls my shirt off. Donatello's hands slowly creep up to my chest, he softly touches my breast. I feel sick. I didn't want this, than the softness goes away as he starts to hit my breast. He moans with pleasure as I hold back my screams

        "oh this will be the best night of you life Y/N! I can feel it!" He almost screams of joy, He brings his lips to my tits as he roughly starts to bit them, that hit. I screamed in pain. I heard a big thud and started to hear footsteps. I sigh, as Donnie turns his head to the door, tiliting his head almost. 

          Raphael knocked the door down, his mystic weapon being visiable. His eyes narrow when he sees Donnie. Donatello reaches for his tech bo but was stopped when Raph hit him against the wall. I scream as I try to run, my addrenaline rushing though my vanes. I feel the three fingers that were just grasping my chest, wrap around my wrists. 

             "IM NOT LOSING YOU AGAIN!" Donnie screams as Im thrown to the ground, Donnie over top of me, I could feel his breath on my cold spine. But that soon ended when Leonardo threw him off me. A thud was heard as Leo tried to look away from my chest that was still nude. He quickly grabbed my arms and threw me over his shoulder, stress was clearly seen from his eyes. I had never seen Leo stressed, only carefree. 

                 "it will be alright amigo-" He says as he rushes to get out of there, panting. But I see behind him, Raphael and Michelangelo fighting Donatello. I shut my eyes as I see just the tiniest bit of blood, I bit my tongue. I didn't want this too be real, but everything so far was..

             1...

2..

              I take a big breath, as I try to imagine all the happy things that I love. All I could think of was nothing.. All my life so far has been shit, nothing, nothing has brought happiness to me. I feel my eyes bringing tears as I grip tightly to Leo, he holds me tighter. I hope I wouldn't have to endure this any longer than I already have. 

              3.....

                             4....

           I hear the distant screams as Leon runs though the center of the sewers with me over his shoulder. 

5.......

                          6...............

           I count just a bit more, than, silence hit me. Safe, I hope, back in the TV room where I felt for the first time, safe. Leo sets me down as he still keeps his eyes far away from me. I was shaking, wet from crying and sweat, and a bit of blood tickling down my neck. I was barely keeping myself together, wrapping my arms around my chest in attempt to cover and protect myself, while bitting my lips so I wouldn't scream anymore.