can't be friends

us.

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Emilys POV

JJ and I made our way inside her bedroom, not daring to disconnect our lips. I feel so bad. I feel like a terrible person. JJ is the last human that I would ever want to hurt and I hurt her. I don't know if I can live with myself. But I have her right now and that's all that matters.

Our clothes slowly come off, one at a time until we were on her bed. She lifts her neck and I suck on her sweet spot, trailing my hand down her body. I messed up so bad.

A soft moan comes out of her mouth and I needed to hear more right now. I bring my lips back to hers and our tongues wrestle as our hands were all over each other. She unhooks my bra and I let it fall leaving me in just my panties.

I pull her shirt above her head and I rub her nipples with my thumb.  

Usually our sex would be a lot more kinky. But this wasn't like this at all. Probably because I know it's going to be the last time.

JJ's an amazing person. She deserves so much more than me. I wish I could've been better for her.

I kiss my way down to her panty line and pull hers down, throwing it else where.

I connect my lips to pussy and flick my tongue around her flit. "Em." She moans. I carefully push a finger inside of her, and then I add another. Still sucking her clit.

Her jaw drops open as her chest moves up and down. She's so beautiful. I don't think I'll ever forgive myself for messing this up.

I flicked my fingers slowly inside of her and using my other arm to roam her body. Her hips rose off the bed and I carefully placed them back down.

She places her hand on the back of my head to keep me in place as I suck her clit faster. I use my free arm to spread her legs wider and she lets out a loud moan. I don't know if anyone's home right now but honestly I don't care.

I flick my fingers into her faster, hitting her g spot every time. "Emily." She moans. "You're doing so good beautiful." I say, I know she needs praise.

"I'm-" she starts to say, rolling her eyes into the back of her head. I speed my fingers up. "Cum baby. I got you. You're doing amazing." I says and she lets go, bucking her hips into my face and arching her back.

"Fuck emily!" She moans, a tear slips from her eye as she places her hand over mine. She pulls me back up towards her and our lips are hungry for each other.

We flip around and she brings one leg over my body. Getting us into the scissoring position. We're still kissing and my hand trails to her ass, gripping it and moving my hands towards her thigh.

Our centers make contact with each others and we both begin to moan. I hold into her hips as she moves back and forth, this felt so good.

My eyes felt heavy and I was holding back tears. I could tell JJ was too. "Oh gosh!" She moans, licking her lips and exposing her neck.

She was doing it perfectly. Everything she does is so perfect. I don't think I'll ever love anybody else as much as I love her. I love how gentle she is and then how sassy she turns. I love everything about her. We were perfect. We were happy. We were in love. I was going to propose to her, tonight. Before I messed everything up.

Tonight, December 2nd- I was going to make her my fiancé. And now we're broken up, making love for the last time.

"This feels so good." I moan. My brain started to get foggy and I felt that I was going to cum, I begin to hold out, for JJ.

She wasn't too far behind me, throwing her head back. I met her thrusts to help her finish and we both reached our climaxes at the same time.

Tears fell out of her eyes as we rock our hips back and forth for each other, I close my eyes and the tears were here.

We help each other ride out our highs, she falls on top of me, her body giving out. I pull her on top of me, kissing her as both of our tears got in the way.

I turn us over so I'm on top, pulling her cover over us. We sat there. Kissing each other and crying. Nothing else in the world mattered. I wasn't thinking about anything else but this moment right here. Me and JJ. How I had the greatest opportunity of meeting the love of my life and I tossed it aside for what? What if we only get one true love in our lifetimes. What if this is it for me?

JJ isn't just the love of my life. She's much more than a soulmate. It's like we are one. She's my twin flame. The sense of familiarity, recognition, longing, love that we experience together. That's one of a kind. This isn't a love that you waste.

"Tell me it will all be okay." She cries, nearly sobbing at this point. And so was I. "We will be okay. With or without each other. Everything is going to be okay." I cry.

"How do I make it not hurt so bad?" She says.

I didn't know what to say, I don't know the answer to that myself. I kiss her around her face.

"You were my first love." She cries, "and I wanted to be your last." She adds. This broke me.

"I'll never love another person as much as I love you. I'll look for you in every single person I meet." I kiss her.

"Maybe in another life time? Right person, wrong timing?" She says. "I like to this that us getting the wrong room selections and then us falling in love wasn't a coincident. It was the universe pulling us together. I'm sure."

"You're my soulmate and I'm losing you." She cries.

"I love you Jennifer." I say, Kissing her. "Jennifer I love you so much." Pressing my lips around hers, around her cheek. "That'll never change. I love you. You made me who I am today, you made me into such a better person and I will spend the rest of my life acknowledging you for who I am. I love you."

"You broke me." Her tear filled eyes look up at me.