can't be friends

so cold - 2

JJ's POV
Same day

I made my way off the field and was greeted by my friends outside the stadium. "Where is she?" I ask them. "She thought that you wouldn't want to see her." Pen said. "Fucking coward." I scoff. "Thank you guys for waiting." I say. "You're welcome. Congratulations!" Spence says and they all congratulate me. "Thank you guys. I really appreciate." I say.

I notice Emily walking off out the gate and I ran over to her, grabbing her by her wrist and pulling her aside. "JJ.... I'm so sor-" "You're sorry? You're fucking sorry? Don't even say that shit to me right now because you obviously wouldn't have done it if you even CARED about me." I say.

"I tried to stop it. I did I told her that I love you and it's not happening." "And what? And she kissed you and you didn't stop it? And you actually looked like you were enjoying it! Am I a joke to you? You just let other girls kiss you now?" I say.

She doesn't say anything and doesn't even look me in the eye, and a tear rolls down her face. "You kissed her." I realize, my whole entire body filling with so much rage.

"I didn't think. I just did it." "So it's that easy? It's that easy for you to cheat on me? You were talking so much shit about her a few days ago and now you're kissing her? Did you want to hurt me? You did it where I could see it."

"I didn't think you'd-" "you'd didn't think I'd see it? Well that makes it better thanks emily I really appreciate that no it's okay." I say sarcastically.

"JJ please. I'm so sorry it's never going to happen again I promise you. I swear on everything I love. I love you so much I really can't lose you." Emily cries and it's taking everything in me to not comfort her.

I look up away from her as tears fall out of my eyes.
"Who are you?" I choke on my words, "you tell me you love me and then you do this. You tell me over and over again to trust you and I did. You tell me you're never going to leave me and you would never want anybody else. You wanted to propose to me. You made me fall in love with you and then you-" I cry.

"Baby please. I'm so sorry I hurt you I swear it'll never happen again. I'm so in love with you and I can't imagine my life with no one else. I hurt you I'm sorry I'm so beyond sorry words can't explain. I will spend the rest of my life making this up to you. Please."

"You kissed the girl who talked shit about my dead sister." I say, glaring at her.

She doesn't say another word after this.

"We're done Emily..... I'm moving my stuff out."

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The next morning

I'm staying in a hotel with my mom and dad for a few days. I packed everything up yesterday and took it here. Spent all of last night crying into my parent's arms and all of this morning throwing up because of my anxiety.

I laid still in bed, trying to pinpoint where everything went wrong.

There's been news articles about our break up and how she cheated on me and I broke down during the game. Don't know how they found out but whatever.

Getting cheated on ✅
Being publicly humiliated ✅

Thanks Emily. What more can you do for me?

My parents took my phone and turned it off so I didn't try to text Emily. "Do you want some pancakes sweetie?" My dad asks. "No." I say. "You gotta eat eventually pumpkin." My mom says. "Okay."

"How are you feeling?" Dad asks. "Fine."

"Do you want some water?" Mom asks. "No."

"How about I run you a bath." Mom says. "No."

"Do you want to cry again?" Dad asks. "No."

I keep zoning off into the distance and I roll over and try to fall asleep.

I started to doze off and I felt my stomach turn.

I shoot up out of bed and run to the bathroom, puking into the toilet. My dad is right behind me holding my hair. Him and my mom started taking turns after the first few times I threw up this morning.

He flushes the toilet for me and I stayed leaning onto the toilet. "You okay?" He asks and I start to sob again. "I gotchu sweetheart." He helps me up and brings me to my bed.

"Everything's going to be okay." He says.

Bullshit.