To Keep From Getting Burned (Sitkolson Sequel)

20| Not So Bad.

(A/N: Is any one else like super excited for warped tour if you haven't already gone this year? Because my heart literally burst whenever i think about it because i'm so pumped... okay, ENJOY!!!)

MUSIC: Pittsburgh (by The Amity Affliction)

*Josh's POV*

After my little coughing up blood episode last night, I decided it was probably best to call my doctor. He informed me that since the episode stopped on it's own, then it probably wasn't very serious, but if it happens again then i should see him immediately. Well, that was good news because i don't handle doctors very well.

My house seemed so empty without Ryan-Ashley's presence. Even though i was pissed her, and yes, i was most definitely pissed, i still loved her. I am only alive for her and therefor my heart only beats in her honor, whether she knows it or not. I couldn't sleep last night without her either. I even found myself accidentally talking to her, well, myself since she wasn't there. 'Sweet Dreams' I whispered before i managed to steal an hour or two of sleep before being woken up by my own thoughts.

"Hey, baby doll." Ryan said in a sing-song baby talk kind of way, which pulled me out of my trench of thoughts. I craved a distraction because i wasn't quite ready to forgive Ryan-Ashley yet, so I stopped by Ricky and Ryan's place. Surprisingly when i got there, Ricky was holding a baby awkwardly like he wasn't sure where to put his hands. Ryan only chuckled. "Let me hold you, honey buns." He took the small newborn from Ricky's arms.

"Honey buns? Really?" I snorted.

"Shush, i couldn't think of anything else. I'm not very good at this." Ryan sat down on top of Ricky's legs so that his were swung over Ricky's. God dammit they were cute and it only made it harder for me to not think about Ryan Ashley. They were definitely relationship goals. At least they didn't cheat on each other. Well, i mean there was that whole baby daddy issue that still exists, but i guess i don't have that problems anymore since i can't have kids. Maybe i don't even want kids. Sure it would be cool to have something that is actually mine and that i physically created but it's a lot of work and money, not to mention. The baby, which has yet to be named because of Ricky and Ryan's indecision, started to fuss and kick around. "You want to go to Uncle Balz?" Ryan added some weird kissy sounds.

"That sounds so weird." Ricky scoffed, scrolling through Instagram posts on his phone. I could still see the enveloped folded in his pocket. Damn he was taking this whole 'don't open it until you get the call' very seriously. If i were in his place, it would have been read already.

"I'm not very good with Children, maybe it's a good thing i can't have any."I sighed to myself, but quickly covered it up with a fake smile because i haven't told them yet.

"Oh, c'mon it'll be fine." Ryan forced the small child into my arms.

"I don't know about this,man. Scary goth man plus small innocent baby usually equals something horrific happening." The baby felt weird in my arms, like i was carrying a lopsided brick that instantly fell asleep when i held it. I actually found a smile spreading across my face. I mean, at least it didn't start crying immediately when i held it, i think that would make my mood a lot worse.

Meanwhile, while i held their baby, Ricky and Ryan started a complete make out session on the couch a few feet from me. Wow, guys, way to make me feel better. Ricky was on top of Ryan, straddling him with one leg on either side of his hips while their lips met passionately. Their excuse: "Gay marriage was legalized in every state in the USA", so this is how they celebrate. I was definitely proud of them, but their make out session was making me uncomfortable.

"Ah, teaching your child porn at a young age." I remarked sarcastically so that they would stop, which thankfully they did. "Ya know, i think my little rocker man likes me." I smiled, rocking the baby in my arms gently, so i wouldn't wake him.

"Hate to break your little uncle-baby bond that you have going on, but your 'little rocker man' has a vagina." Ricky butted in earning himself a glare from me. "The doctors made a mistake when reading the sonogram"

"Well then she shall be my little Rocker princess." I kissed her soft forehead and i saw a small smile appear on her lips as she slept. "You're not so bad, squirt."

"Get your own baby, baby whore." Ricky picked up the baby from my loose arms and held her to his chest and rocked her back and forth. "Maybe, you and Ryan Ashley can have your own one day." My heart immediately sunk.

"That's actually out of the question." They gave me a weird look. "I can't have kids... i'm considered 'sterile' all thanks to my illness." They both gave me sympathetic sad smiles. "What are you going to name her?" I immediately changed the subject and gestured to my little rocker princess.

"We have a few ideas..."

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Kind of a short, fluffy filler chapter, but oh well. What should their baby be named????

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