To Keep From Getting Burned (Sitkolson Sequel)

8| Confession.

(A/N: Ricky is not impressed ^^^ let me know if you can or cannot see the gif above because I've had this problem before... ENJOY!)

Music: Another You (by Of Mice & Men)

 Still Into You (by Paramore) 

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*Ghost's POV*

It's been just about a week since Ricky had been hospitalized for whatever he did. I was never informed about what had gotten him into the hospital or how badly he was inured, unfortunately. All i knew was that he as in a coma now and they didn't know when he'd wake up. Chris said that it was 'nothing' but he sounded hesitant as if he didn't want to tell me. I don't blame him though, if someone hurt Ricky bad enough to land him in the hospital then i am bound to kick the shit out of them, so it's best not to let me know what happened. Even if i was pissed at Ricky for what he did to Ryan, he was still my friend and i'd protect that little shit no matter what. But still, the curiosity got the better of me at times.

I was also told that i had to watch over Ryan. Literally every second of the day i had to check on him. Chris forced him to stay with me while Chris slept overnight at the hospital for the past couple of days. I didn't really mind his company though, I took his side with the whole Ricky-baby thing and he was my best friend, so of course i would let him stay with me at my place. What i didn't know was that he was an emotional wreck. Like, if his emotions were a train, they have been completely derailed. No joke.

It was midnight when i decided to finally go to bed. I shut off all the lights and made sure Ryan was safe in his own bed in the guest room before plopping down to finally sleep. I was so tired that i had even forgotten to wipe of my make up. About three hours later, at three o'clock in the morning, i was awoken by someone tapping and shaking my shoulder gently, as if they were afraid to touch me. "Ghost..." I heard a soft voice before i opened my eyes to the pitch blackness of my room. Flicking on the lamp beside my bed to illuminate the space with a dull glow, i found Ryan cowering by my bedside. "Sorry," He murmured, looking kind of embarassed, but that was all masked by the tears staining his puffy eyes and cheeks. I could tell he cried himself to sleep again as he usually did, that is, if he even got to sleep this time.

"Mm?" I groaned in response, my throat still thick from sleeping. If i were to talk, i would have sounded like a frog, so i just stuck to simple sounds for now.

"I can't sleep." He whimpered, holding the fluffy blanket that he dragged into the room with him, up to his face. Ryan looked like a cute, spooked toddler, and i couldn't help but smile.

"Thinking of Ricky again?" I asked simply even though i already knew the answer. Of course he was thinking of Ricky, he was still madly in love with him, and form what i can tell, they are still together, just taking it slower than before. He nodded in response, not trusting his own words because they were clouded with tears at the thought of Ricky. "Do you want to sleep in here with me?"

Without even giving me a chance to make room for him on my king size bed, he leapt into the thick blankets. I groaned but then welcomed his presence, rolling over on my side to go back to sleep. Just as i was about to drift back to my sleeping coma-like state, Ryan started talking again. "Ghost?"

"Yes, Ry Ry?" I was trying to be as nice as possible, but a man's gotta sleep for God's sake!  

"Did they tell you why Ricky is in the hospital?" His voice quivered slightly. Finally, something that peeked my interest. I've been so out of the loop with this hospital thing and we all know i'm the gossip queen so i'm practically dying with out any input.

"No." I was silently begging for him to continue, listening to him intently.

"D-don't tell them i told you..." He started apprehensively. "And don't be mad at me, i'm already m-mad at myself." Ryan sounded like he was going to break down any second now, but if even a tear left his swollen eyes, I would comfort him without a hesitation.

"of course." I rolled over to look at him face-to-face.

"i-it was kind of my fault that Ricky's in the hospital. W-well not directly, but i could have helped him." He stopped to take a shaky breath before continuing. "I was with Chris in his apartment when h-he ran past me holding a piece of paper. A-and i didn't think anything of it... I should have known to ch-check in him b-but i'm such an idiot!" He burst into a fit of tears and rapid breathing. I knew he was going to have a panic attack, but those were inevitable at this point, so i just let him cry and hoping that the silence would comfort him. I pat his back and waited patiently for him to keep talking.

"We found him in the b-bathroom." He sobbed. "He tried to kill himself, w-with p-pills and a blade." Ryan didn't even have the strength or courage to look up at me. My breathing caught in my chest. I didn't know how to react, let alone comfort Ricky. I knew how he was feeling and i know that there's nothing in the world that could make that pain go away but time and forgiveness and that's something i can't give him. "I thought i lost him." He spoke as he dissolved into tears.

"This isn't your fault, Ryan." i held him in a tight hug to let him know everything was going to be okay, even if i didn't believe him myself. "This will never be your fault, you know he's been depressed for years and Caroline made it worse." I stroked Ryan's hair and pushed it out of his face as he nuzzled his head into my chest.

After a while of sniffling and weeping, i felt his body relax, and that's when i knew he was asleep at last. But of course, his peace didn't last long when my phone lit up with a shrill chirp as i received a call from who-knows-who. I groaned, as Ryan stirred awake. Reading the screen, I was quick to answer the Phone because it was Chris. "Hello?" I put the phone on speaker phone so Ryan could hear as well.

"Ricky's awake."

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I told you guys i could never kill Ricky lol but i could kill off other characters (have you noticed that Balz hasn't been in recent chapters?) DUN DUN DUNNNN

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