To Keep From Getting Burned (Sitkolson Sequel)

18| Complications.

(A/N: I'm not sure if i used this picture yet, but i really like it,mm yeah bite that lip, Ricky... ENJOY!)

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Music:       Stitches ( by Shawn Mendes)

*Ricky's POV*

       By now, I've gotten really tired of hospitals. They were all the same, no matter what unit you were in, the only difference was the color of the wall and nurses uniforms. These nurses and doctors wore a pastel blue and pink, probably because those colors were associated with babies. Ew, pink.

       I felt bad for making Ryan come with me, well, actually that was his choice, but still. It must be so weird for him to be here. The thoughts going through his mind must be twisted and jumbled up in confusion. We still didn't know if i was the father, which i doubt i was, but how could i be sure? I couldn't, not until the baby was born. Besides, No one could really think straight with Caroline screaming bloody murder from her hospital bed. I'd probably be doing the same thing if i had a baby shoving its way out of my... body.

     "Get this thing out of me!" She screamed, almost sounding like a demon possessed her body, but it's not like she was any nicer before. I heard the doctor say that she was dilated to about 10 cm, so she could start pushing. 

       "Who's the father?" One doctor wearing a white surgical mask over his nose and mouth, along with rubber gloves over his hands. Reluctantly, i moved forward and raised my hand. I could almost feel Ryan's eyes glaring holes into the back of my head when i said that i was the father, but i was torn, because both Caroline and Ryan needed me. "Okay, you can stay in the room, you-" He gestured to Ryan. "Can wait in the waiting room in the hall." Ryan hesitantly did as he was told after he looked at me for reassurance. I nodded once, before he left completely. 

    I shouldn't have let him come here, i know this is killing him. I know seeing me with her and a baby that could possibly be mine was slowly eating him from the inside out, but his stubbornness made him refuse to leave. I was pulled out of my train of thoughts when Caroline grabbed my hand and squeezed with all of her strength. And let's just say, she wasn't weak at all. She quickly slipped me an envelope that read 'Don't open until you get the call'. And then she went back to pushing with all her strength.

     "Push, push , push." The doctor kept on urging her after multiple failed attempts. Finally, the head emerged and the baby started to come out.

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     After hours and hours of agonizing pushing, and my hand finally going numb, the baby came out. His skin was a bright pink color and his cries didn't sound like cries at all, they sounded like tiny whimpers that didn't sound humanly possible. My vision started to fade a flicker like a strobe light and i knew i was going to pass out. Sitting down on the closest chair, i saved myself before i actually fainted like a wimp. I've never seen a baby being born before, and part of me never wanted to see it again, but the other part told me it was beautiful. It was a miracle how it happened and it has yet to not amaze me and i couldn't believe how-

     The monitors attached to Caroline's chest started to beep frantically and the next thing i know, The doctors swarmed her body like flies to a rotting carcass. "What's going on?" I started to push through them, only to be ushered back.  "What's going on?!" My voice was strained and breaking, especially when i caught a glimpse of her limp, pale body. A sense of death filled the room when her heart monitors stopped beeping all together. Caroline had died with her son wrapped in her arms.

*Ryan's POV*

      I ran into the room when i heard the desperate wails of my poor boyfriend inside. He was broken down on the floor with an envelope clutched in his hands. He had not opened it yet, but it was crumpled in his tense grip. I rushed to his side and pulled him into my arms. Only then did i realize that Caroline was no longer breathing, no longer living. She was covered in a plain white sheet until a person was to come to collect and identify her body. 

     I felt Ricky trembling against me as i held him so close to me. I could feel his angry pulse against my tense arms. I felt horrible, i felt so bad about all those things i aid about Caroline, even if they were true. I wish i was more like Ricky. Everything about him was perfect, whether he realized that or not. His passion for music i admired, his strong heart i loved, and his ability to care for those who have hurt him in the past motivated me to be a better person.

    "I-I Don't know what to do now." He said in between furious sobs. "She's d-dead."

     "I know, i know." I stroked my fingers through his hair and down his back until his crying subsided. A doctor that i recognized strode over to us with a sympathetic look drawn onto his face. In his arms was a small baby that was enclosed in a blue blanket. 

     "I'm sorry for your loss." He murmured his apology then handed the baby boy who was sleeping soundly to Ricky who looked admiringly at the small child.

     "I promise, if this baby isn't yours, we'll find him a perfect home." I kissed the side of Ricky's head softly. "And if he is yours... ours... I will love him to pieces, almost as much as i love you."

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Sorry i haven't updated as quickly as i usually do, but i was in the hospital again, and i just got around to updating it now... i hope you like it, and maybe don't cry... i don't know what you guys find sad besides Josh's death scare twice, along with Ricky..

i also really wanna know the 1% of you that is a guy reading this... and who is from finland???

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