Family Problems (Boyxboy+mpreg)

Part 47

~Travis~

I looked over at my Cole and he was just cuddling Az on his chest well Aiden was cuddling Wyatt. What would I have done if he cut deeper this morning? What if I didn't go check on him? What if-

"Trav?" I shook my head and focused back and Cole was moving closer and put his hand on my cheek and wiped under my eyes. "What's wrong hun?" Then he flinched and looked away. "Sorry stupid question."

"No, no baby. Sorry I didn't mean to stare and I didn't mean to start crying again. I'm just really glad you're alright. I mean not the best but you know you're fighting and you're trying and that's all I can really ask." Cole nodded and gave me a small smile.

"I dont really want to talk about it anymore. Not today. I have a headache and I just can't keep trying to explain myself." I nodded then and took his hand.

"I'm sorry hun. I won't talk about it again. I didn't mean to upset you hun I'm sorry." I moved to get up and Cole pulled my hand.

"I wish I could be more help to you but I just can't handle talking about it anymore." I nodded and bent to kiss his hand before moving to go out back. I closed the door behind me and leaned back against the house. It's been a lot today... I think I might need someone to talk to. Holding so much in and trying to be there for Cole and be a good dad... No I need to vent it out with someone so I can be the best I can be for them. My babies deserve the best version of me and the best version of Cole. I'm glad right now they are too young to know what their dada is going through. And aside from him not being up every feeding and stuff, he's around for them everyday when he can be.

"Hey." I jumped and held a hand to my heart. I turned and glared at Bent and let out a breath.

"Are you trying to give me a heartattack?" Bent laughed and shook his head before standing in front of me. He's 14 and I think he's as tall as me if not taller. That's just crazy to me.

"Are you alright? Cole and Aiden text me to come down and check on you." I looked down then and shook my head.

"Just been a lot today you know? And I can't really talk to anyone about it but I also don't think I should talk to anyone about it. It's just jumbled in my head right now." Bent nodded and took a deep breath.

"I'm here if you want to get some off your chest right now. I know you guys think I'm like the twins age but I'm really just 2 years younger than them and 3 younger than you." I looked at him then and nodded.

"It's harder for your siblings I think to see you being older. But I get it. I think it's just hard. He's the father of my babies you know? It kills me knowing the pregnancy took this much from him and he restorted to this today. I hate seeing him struggle so bad. It's like a piece of him is missing right now. These babies saved my life, Cole changed my life and I hate to think that it all made his harder." Bent had some tears in his eyes then.

"I get that. I can see how you would see that way to but I don't think Cole would want you thinking that. Those babies mean the world to him. And if that thought isn't in his head, saying that to him might put it in his head. Regardless if he wants to or not he might end up blaming them. I think it's best that thought is better kept to yourself. I get you thinking that though. And Cole really isn't himself but I think he can find his way back. Today was really hard and it does suck but he's strong. As strong as our Dad. He will make it through this and he will be stronger because of it." I was crying now and Bent come over and hugged me. "He's strong. He gets it from both our Dad's. I know it's hard seeing him like this but we just have to be here for him and remind him how much we love him and how he will make it through this rough patch."

"Thank you for listening Bent. And thanks for coming out and checking on me." I pulled back hearing my babies start crying and patted Bent on the back before we went back inside. Cole was up and walking back and forth with Az well Aiden was trying to calm down Wyatt. I went over and grabbed my son and he instantly calmed down when he realized I had him. I kept him on my shoulder and rubbed his back, kissing the side of his head.