Family Problems (Boyxboy+mpreg)

Part 35

~Travis~

It felt good watching all the kids, feeding them and just being a dad. I had my baby boy in my arms and I love him so much. It's been just a few days and I feel so lost without them. But these last few days have given me the chance to actually think about everything and get my head straight.

"Ba- Travis can you help me with Ri really quick I need to change Az." I want us together. He is the father of my babies, he gave me my babies but we can't be putting ourselves through that right now.

"Yeah I'll be right there." I slowly got up with Wyatt and put him down in the bassinet before going and picking up Riley. He's so cuddly I honestly can't handle it. "Hey big guy, yeah aren't you just as handsome as ever. Yeah." I kissed his chubby cheeks and moved to sit down with him. I love kids, I never thought of having any at all but now that I have my babies I can't think of anything better than being a dad. I of course need to get Cole on the same page as me before we can have them though because, a job, school and being a dad is a lot for just me to take on. But now it's going to put a lot of strain on Tyler and Seth and I hate that. They were nice enough to take me in and now they have to take custody of my babies and have their babies. I want my life to be simple. I don't want my life any different then it is right now I just wish Cole was okay. Seth went through some tough shit too though so I hope Cole can get through this.

"Okay I can take Riley to my room so he can nap. Are you guys taking the babies?"Aris asked well taking Ri from me.

"I can take them with me. I'll just take the bassinet down with me." I said quickly. I didn't want anyone else having them well I can have them right now. I feel like if I can get through tonight then I can probably handing taking care of them myself until Cole is ready to handle them too.

"Are you sure? I just don't want to make it harder on you guys." Aria asked and I shook my head yes.

"It's fine don't worry."

"Cole?" Cole got up after changing Az and put her in with her brother.

"I'm fine watching them myself, don't worry about it." I didn't mean any offence or anything towards him but I think he thought I meant it in that way. He looked a little hurt and took a step back. "Aw hell Cole I didn't mean anything by that. I just meant I can do it myself if it makes you feel too anxious or anything. I don't want to make you feel uncomfortable."

"I got it. I just feel bad that you even have to think of my feeling when it comes to taking care of our own babies. I'm such a screw up. Who doesn't want to take care of their own kids. I'm sorry, I'm going to my room now." He quickly walked away before myself or Aria could stop him.

"He will come around Trav." I looked down at my babies and sighed.

"I know he will. I know this isn't forever and soon these babies will have both their dads again. I don't blame him or anything. I don't want you guys to have any bad feeling towards him either. He's trying, he's been trying. It's not his fault that he has something going on in his mind preventing him from feeling less than he should. With the right help he will get better and he will love and become attached to the babies just like everyone else has." Aria moved Ri to one arm and came over to me and gave me a side hug.

"I don't blame my brother. At first I think I did but hearing how he describes how he's feeling.... it sounds like its killing him to feel the way he does. I don't blame him. Not anymore and I know soon enough he will have the attachment to the babies. I just hope it's sooner rather than later for my parents sack." I nodded and hugged her back. We talked a little bit longer before she went to go lay down with Ri and I got Bent to help me bring the bassinet downstairs with the babies. When I was all set up in my room I felt weird. MY room..... I have my own room. It's okay, I don't mind it. It got all painted over once it become mine, well not painted just wall paper. I didn't want to wait days to get in here so they did wall paper. It's weird. I miss sleeping by Cole, having him in my arms all night and his annoyingly loud snoring. It's hard getting to sleep but it's something I'm adjusting to. I don't want to be completely dependent on anyone. It's good and healthy to get space, and that's all I'm thinking of this as right now. Just space. Everything happened to fast with us we didn't have time to ease in to everything and again I'm so happy with my babies it's just I need time to recover and get my mind in order.