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update (I'm crazy)

someone tell me why texting adults is so stressful like you can't type like "lol fr fr bro lmao idk" you have to text like its a fricking email 😭

edit: my aunt just called me cuz its her birthday and we chatted for like 50 seconds. she thought i was still at school lol. i told her i had a math test but i think i did good and she said thats good. the convo kinda died after that cuz im bad at talking to people sometimes.

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ok im still into the paranormal/sam and colby so i'm gonna list all the ghosts in my house

at the old house there was the creepy "mold man" (i dont think it was human). He lived in the basement shower. I never saw him and its possible this guy doesnt exist cuz 6-year-old me made it up when i moved to the house and went to the basement alone. He was supposed to be this big dark monster thing made of dirt and the mold in the bathroom tile cracks.

then there was heather the doll. definitely haunted. she was naked and we put her in a box of takis because we thought it was funny, in october of 2020. idk what happened to her when we finished the takis. she was missing for almost two years. october of 2021 i asked my mom where heather was and she thought i was hiding it as a halloween prank, but i wasnt so i thought SHE was hiding it as a scary prank. my dad never messed with the doll so it was either me or my mom. november 2021, in the early morning on a weekend, i heard tapping and knocking coming from the basement. i sat on the couch in the living room and in my peripheral vision i saw a flash of a little kid in a white dress run up the stairs. she had short brown hair and her dress looked old-timey like colonial times? i associated her with heather the doll because they looked similar. when we moved (june 2022), my mom found heather sitting up in a box in my closet. she didnt put her there. i didnt put her there. we dont know how she got there. I am terrified of dolls, and what makes this worse is that we dont know where she is now. she could be at the old house (but where???) or she could be in the new house, waiting somewhere in a box or a closet (but no one's found her or knows where she is). we didnt get rid of her. but we didnt keep her. ITS SO CREEPY.

at this house, there is some random man and a little boy.

the man (i guess you could call him a shadow man) keeps to himself and doesnt do much. i've only seen him once. i was trying to go to sleep but i couldnt because i kept seeing things (my vision kept making up shadows in my room 😭) and then i looked at my mamma mia poster on my wall and since the hallway light was on, you could see the reflection of part of the hallway on the poster, and i saw a black figure with a top hat zoom past. and it wasnt my parents because they were downstairs. i was the only person upstairs and i didnt imagine it (i was wide awake and it wasnt that late only 9:30). it scared the shit out of me and i was scared he was gonna come in my room or something but he just disappeared. i think he's pretty chill. as long as he doesnt bother me, who cares? if he were a demon or some shit, i would def know. i think he's just a normal guy.

then there's the little boy spirit. He's probably 3 or 4 years old if i had to guess (he could be 5-6, idk im kinda bad at guessing ages since all little kids are babies to me). he likes being around me. i guess it makes sense that i could be his favorite person in the house cuz i'm the youngest. i wonder if my mom knows about him cuz she's always at home and once she said that we have a ghost.

things little boy ghost (i'll learn his name eventually) does

-once he hid behind my shower curtain when i was brushing my teeth at night. i looked in the mirror to see if anything was in my shower and i saw a little head peak out and look at me. He had light brown hair. I just saw his hair and part of his forehead. I only saw him for half a second, but someone was def there. when i looked in my shower directly, nothing was there. i looked back in the mirror, nothing.

-he watches me practice viola sometimes. there's a vortex (when two mirrors face each other and create a "portal") in my music room and the foyer. The music room doors are always open and the big mirror on the wall faces the one in the foyer so it makes sense why he hangs around there most of the time. i've never SEEN him when i practice, but i sense his presence either behind me or to my left (idk how to explain it but i just KNOW he's there). he's harmless, though. i think he just likes to listen to the music. i don't know how much power/energy he has, so thank god he hasn't made any audible sounds or turned off any lights yet. he seems like the type to let out a little giggle in the middle of the night though (if you're reading what i'm typing right now, PLEASE DO NOT DO THAT).

-when i sit at my desk, sometimes he sits on my bed behind me. he's probably there right now. actually maybe not cuz i don't feel anyone watching me right now. he might be in the kitchen. yeah, that makes sense cuz my mom's making brownies.

-one time he kept knocking on the wall in my parents' office at 8am on a saturday 😭 typical little kid waking up early to annoy me. i looked outside the windows and it wasnt anything outside like a woodpecker. there's nothing in the wall where the knocks were coming from. i put my hand on the wall and i felt the vibrations, so i knew they were real.

-a couple nights ago, it was like 9:30, and i was trying to get to sleep. then i heard my dad's computer turn on (by itself, he had turned it off before my parents went downstairs). the computer fan thing was going and it really loud and distracting so i couldnt sleep. like 20 minutes later i heard the printer turn on and make the beep sound it makes when it prints something. i dont know what was printed (i dont really go in the office much so i never got to check) but it was not my parents or me who did it. so i guess he's got enough energy to use the computer and printer 😭

i wonder what would happen if i left out some toys in my room. or downstairs in my music room. honestly, i'm surprised that he hasnt knocked music/books off my stand yet (idk what he's physically capable of, though).

i am never using a ouija board because i have the same exact one as corey (iykyk) so that fucking scares me. i used to try to play with it in the old house when i was like 8 or 9 but i didnt read the directions and didnt even "start" the game properly and after no answer, i decided it was a scam and never used it again. i dont think you can even do ouija board by yourself so i think i'm fine and did not summon any demons.

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tonight is the pre-assessment concert and we actually sound pretty decent. thank god the middle schoolers wont be there so the concert should be pretty short.