✨my diary/thoughts✨

i love him

our first school orchestra concert is tonight and we're STAND PARTNERS AAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

i cant wait to see him again <3333333 (i saw him 3 hours ago)

if anything happens i will update this chapter thingy (nothing's gonna happen but let me be delulu)

i'll probably just be like "omg hes so cute wuirgfrgtrhhviufjqriehgfiuqgeuwbgjvf"

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and the unsent project i made logan write one for me cuz it wouldnt load

"i love you so much

- w"

i've been listening to love songs nonstop

it HITS DIFFERENT when we're hanging out and lover is playing in the background

the concert is halloween themed so everyone dresses up in a costume and i'm gonna be Jason Dean from Heathers and i stole my mom's trench coat :D

junior mint is gonna be a skeleton cuz hes fucking basic BUT I STILL LOVE HIM

IM BEGGING FOR YOU TO TAKE MY HAND WRECK MY PLANS THATS MY MAN

i think i love him more than i ever loved owen or precipitation (sorry not sorry)

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ok so last night i went to the school and i saw him and i was like ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh <3333

and then he had friends there he was talking to and kinda ignoring me :( cuz they're juniors but his friends are in the lower orchestra

i took lots of pictures (mostly of ger-bear cuz he was barbie lol)

at rehearsal i was simping so hard and got distracted

and then back in the music room before the concert i asked for his number and he said "no i dont want you in possession of my number" like wtf we're stand partners dude what am i gonna do?? (i was gonna add him to the squidward group chat but he doesnt need to know that)

so i was like "haha ok then" and i was actually kinda sad cuz he basically still thinks im a baby and he doesnt actually care about me (lol im FINEEE)

and then right before the concert i saw him talking to cello girl (her code name is crocodile cow bc her name rhymes with crocodile and her halloween costume was a cow lol)

and i took a pic of them to send to logan and be like "what if theyre a couple :(" but the pic is so bad its funny

you can see junior's mint pelvis bone and his horrible bow hold and then COW

so yeah i got kinda jealous

so at the concert i was acting kinda mad at him cuz i was temporarily out of love with him cuz he BASICALLY REJECTED ME :|

like not smiling at everything he said (which is what i usually do)

then after the concert us orchestra kids went into the audience to watch the band kids and we sat together and i fell in love with him again bc GUESS WHAT HE SAID

he said something like "we could sneak out rn i could text my mom" and i stared at him lovingly like this    ಠ_ಠ

cuz i love sneaking out after concerts 😩

and then the band kids started playing some Sousa (carousel music) and he was mocking them and then i laughed so hard my head went back and hit the back of the seat i was in and it hurt but it was worth it for him