✨my diary/thoughts✨

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so tonight is the winter concert and we're still stand partners :(

i try to ignore him but its so hard cuz hes right next to me and is always talking or singing or plucking or something else annoying

i want to switch stand partners PLEASEEEEE

and whenever i look in his general direction (but never looking at him) he stares at me like a serial killer and he does that derpy look with his mouth half open

HES A FRICKING 17 YEAR OLD OMG JUST GROW UP ALREADY UR NOT COOL AND NO ONE LIKES YOU

aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

his forehead is really wrinkly and he smokes weed or heroin or something

i know i need to stop ranting about him but im not gonna stop until he knows i hate him and he stops existing :D

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also the middle schoolers will ruin the concert cuz they're playing for most of it 🤮

at least this concert is casual (meaning informal clothes) so maarten wont make fun of my clothes

he cant fucking do that cuz that just implies hes

whats the word

idek if there is a word for it but he's basically saying hes better than me cuz he has more money

OK I NEED TO STOPPPPPP 😭😭😭😭

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also a new song i can relate to with explanations

You say, "I don't understand, " and I say, "I know you don't" - i dont even tell him stuff anymore cuz if i told him he wouldnt believe me and say im lying (like when i broke my arm)

We thought a cure would come through in time, now, I fear it won't - yeah its been over a month, we are never ever ever getting back together

Remember lookin' at this room, we loved it 'cause of the light - literally i LOVE orchestra but hes ruining school for me

Now, I just sit in the dark and wonder if it's time - its def time to ignore him

Do I throw out everything we built or keep it? - should i delete all his pics or no IDK

I'm getting tired even for a phoenix - like maybe i've given up on high school boys

Always risin' from the ashes - i cant believe its taking me more than a month to get over this, thats how bad he is

Mendin' all her gashes - literally he didnt care at all when i got hurt (emotionally AND physically)

You might just have dealt the final blow - never liking guys like him again

Stop, you're losin' me
Stop, you're losin' me
Stop, you're losin' me - he needs to stop trying to get my attention tbh

I can't find a pulse - dont love him anymore

My heart won't start anymore - now i feel like i cant have another crush

For you - he's a horrible person

'Cause you're losin' me - but in this case he already lost me a while ago

Every mornin', I glared at you with storms in my eyes - but he wont take the hint

How can you say that you love someone you can't tell is dyin'? - YEAH IM DYING OVER HERE

I sent you signals and bit my nails down to the quick - cuz he has guns in his house and thats kinda scary like what if he gets angry about the bs he caused and brings one to school 💀