emma
[december 18,2023]
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i wished maddie didn't tell me that, because this night was completely ruined. i didn't even wanna be there supporting jack, i wanted to leave. i couldn't even go minutes watching him without tears in my eyes. jack looked up at me and noticed too, his eyes widened and i couldn't bare to look at him a second longer. i get up out of my seat, my family looks at me confused. "i need to go home, i'll see you guys there." i say, my mother grabs my hand stopping me from walking away. "emma why are you crying? did something happen?" she asks me, i shake my head but tears still stayed in my eyes. "i'll tell you later but i really can't be here anymore." i tell her, she nods her head and lets go of me. "i'll take an uber you guys enjoy this night please!" i say with a fake smile, before walking away and exiting the rink.
i run out of the arena, passing all the security guards and workers who stared at me confused. i pause running and pull out my phone and get an uber. i take a seat on the benches outside of the arena and drag my hands down my face. "fuck, this isn't happening right now." i mumble, i couldn't believe what maddie said. i wanted to tell her shes lying and that jack would never do that, but i know him and he loved maddie.
my uber pulled up and i jumped in the back, i told the woman my address and rested. i truly didn't want to cry in an uber, its never fun and the drivers always notice. i couldn't help it, i was pissed and heartbroken at the same time. i sobbed quietly, i pulled out my phone and checked maddies instagram page. the first thing that popped up was pictures of her from the shoot she did with a bikini brand. i look and see that jack liked her posts, i gulped and kept on scrolling just to see that he's liked almost all her photos. "fuck." i mumble, the uber driver looks at me through her mirror. "you alright sweetie?" she asks me with a soft smile, something about her was comforting. "not really, i found out my boyfriend cheated on me with his ex." i tell her, she gasped. "oh hunny, i'm so sorry." she says, i nod my head.
i look back down at my phone and scroll awhile down, i scrolled all the way back to when her and jack dated last year. i saw pictures of them cuddling and kissing, my heart broke even more when i saw jacks bright smile. he looked so happy, i started to feel some sort of gulit like i don't make him as happy as she did. i start to look at the comments when the uber comes to stop. "here we are love, i hope everything works out." she says, i smile. i hand her the money and thank her before stepping out and walking inside my apartment building.
i walk through the lobby and say goodnight to dolly, i walk into the elevator and wait paciently. memories full of laughter, kisses and everything came upon me as i wait for the doors to open. my heart aches as i realize that things will never be the same with jack, i wasn't forgiving him this time. every single time that he fucks up i forgive him, i've had enough of all his bullshit. i would never cheat on jack, not after what he went through. i think he forgets i went through the same thing with my ex-boyfriend, i would never wanna hurt jack after all he's been through.
the elevator door opens and i walk out, i approch my apartement and open the door. i run inside, into my bedroom and jump on the bed. i cry into my arms, shaking and sobbing. "i fucking hate him. " i say out loud, i hated him so much and hated maddie too. i didn't wanna cry, i hated crying because i feel like i do it so often and it makes me look weak. my mom always said that crying and showing emotions makes you a stonger person, but sometimes i struggle to believe her.
i laid on my bed crying for hours, i attempted to watch gilmore girls but it only made things worse. suddenly i heard the door open and footsteps running towards my bedroom. i had a gut feeling i knew who it was. jack bursts opens my door, he runs over to my bed and kneels on the ground. "emma you need to let me explain." jack says, reaching for my hand to hold. "i'm not letting you explain anymore! i forgive you every damn time that you fuck up and i'm done with it." i yell, jack shakes his head. "you cheated on me jack! after everything we went through, everything we were. how could you, and with maddie." i tell him, tears started to fall from his eyes. "emma please! its over with maddie just please don't leave me." jack says, i wasn't forgiving him this time. "no jack we are done, i fucking hate you." once the words came out and when i say the look on jacks face, i regretted saying it. jack stared at me with absolute heartbreak, he tried to speck but couldn't. "leave now." i tell him sternly, but he shakes his head. "fine then i will." i say getting up and running out of my apartment. i ran down the stairs to the lobby, i could hear jack chasing after me and calling my name. i burst open the door and run through the lobby, dolly notices me first then jack running not far behind. "emma stop please." jack yells, i don't turn around. there was silence for awhile until jack spoke. "i love you!" he yells, my heart drops and i turn around instantly. "you don't fucking love me jack!" i yell, jack shakes his head once again. "if you loved me you wouldn't of cheated on me." i say quieter, jack doesn't say i word and takes in what i said. "goodbye jack."
omg... i'm so sorry. also i love to add movie lines into the book because i feel like its just so fun to add! but guys this book may get boring but i'm going to use some of your guys ideas... and some of mine aka greece! i've been wanting to write about greece so maybe a girls trip with a certain extra person maybe someone some of you want emma to be with but i don't know!
anyways happy reading muah xoxoxo tae🐚✩°｡⋆
