CENZO |18+

34|what?

Louise

Enzo has continued to show me what real men are capable of.  Flourishing me with gifts of all sorts, I'm talking shoes, bags, perfumes, flowers, hell he even gave me one of his black cards for me to, I quote, 'spend however I want'.

I never pictured him to be a softie, but when we are together, he is not afraid to show me how he feels. He hasn't exactly said he loves me but we talk about everything now, and that's a huge step for me.

Everything has been going great. But ever since the night we met at the restaurant, when I was was having dinner with my parents, I have felt him pull away. I know I probably didn't handle the situation better because it sounded like I didn't want to introduce him to my parents.

But being with Enzo, I've learnt one thing, to let him take the lead when it comes to steps like.... Say... introducing the parents. He has never been in a relationship and I do not want to put any pressure on him to do things I'm not sure he is ready for.

Which is why I thought maybe I should wait for him to introduce me to his parents before I do. But judging from the way he has acted towards me since that night, I figured he might be ready for the next step.

I feel like he is distancing himself from me. We are both busy people considering our schedules. But I make time for him. I try so fucking hard to be there with him but he has proven to me this whole week that, he either doesn't want this relationship anymore, or is really upset from that night.

I try not to read into things when I'm off the clock but reading into things seems to be what I'm really good at. Often times, say, nine times out of ten, I am right.

But being me, I will try to fix something before I let go. I feel like my relationship with him is worth fixing. I honestly feel like it could blossom into something beautiful.

This whole week consisted of me trying to have lunch or dinner with him but he has turned me down every-time. Saying he is too busy at work. Who the fuck is he? The president? Wait. Even the damn president makes time for their significant other.

I even resulted into inviting him for breakfast or spend the night at my place. When he said no to those too. I asked to come over to his place and spend the night, and what did he do? Turn me down. Yup! You called it.

So here I am, showing up at his house after he just told me he was too busy to meet and talk.

"Hey Jimmy?" I smile at the man who opened the door.

"Hey Louise, what happened to your key?"

"Forgot it at home. Is he here?" I ask and when he opens the door wider for me, I take it he is home.

"How are you doing?" I ask Jimmy and he smiles at me.

"Great, Besides the pregnancy news, but I'm feeling better now. How are you?"

"I'm sorry? What pregnancy?" I ask with no emotion displayed on my face.

"I uh.... I... I didn't mean pregnancy"

"Jimmy?" I mentioned his name in my psychiatrist voice. It always gets me answers.

"Is Kath pregnant?" I ask calmly and he nods, regret written all over his face. So many things come rushing through my head. She is a stripper, that will only go until her belly starts to show. Which means she will remain unemployed for a while. Maybe if she starts looking for a job now, she can land something else. Otherwise, I don't see a pregnant woman getting a job after a physical interview. That is one heck of a long shot.

Choosing to not comment unless I hear it from my sister, I decide to brush it off.

"Okay. Where is Enzo?"