Du Nord: The Believing heart lost years (EN)

The Edinburgh presentation

Saturday 13 May 2006, Edinburgh, Scotland

"Well, my relationship with Croix began and we were both more attached to each other and with that we took advantage of the closeness, whenever we could we slept together, even more so when there was a tour, every time we slept together, even if it wasn't taking us to another place, it was already a marvellous thing, to be able to sleep cuddled up with her, in short, it's something I've been doing for a long time, no-one suspected we were dating, since we made a point of keeping it under wraps for that time, at least until the summer, when a gig came along that I knew could be controversial, since it would be my second in Scotland, and that very afternoon we knew it could be controversial.

I've already rehearsed the numbers I'm going to do today, it's going to be a very special performance for Edinburgh, that's for sure, I just hope Daryl doesn't turn up to disturb us, we're already here in Edinburgh, the desire to go to the Cavendish house is enormous, but the fear is even greater, I know it's all going to suck.
I hear someone getting on the bus, it must be Alan, telling me to come along and sell T-shirts and autographs, I was with Croix who was working on the computer already making more promotional videos, I glance at the door and there's simply the least desirable presence, I could tell just by her hair.

"You really are a stubborn girl for turning up here, but what can I do if you're ignoring my calls, I've already told you to stay away from them" she said and I signalled to Croix, as this would keep her quiet.

"And what are you going to do? Try to do anything and I'll finish you off" I say, getting up and walking over to Daryl.

"Don't try to test what I can do, I've already warned you to stay away from us, the consequences could be enormous, I know you're close to both mums, but if you get close to the child then you'll suffer worse things" I realise I'm even taller than her, it wasn't the same intimidation as before and I'm already more imposing.

"I'm not afraid of you Daryl, I'm just blossoming and in a matter of time I'll show you that I'm no longer that child you manipulated, today I'm the great Shiny Chariot and there's nothing you can do about it" I say touching her chest with the tip of my finger pointing at her.

"Hahahaha, look who's all worked up, have you forgotten what I can do? Your life is going to become a living hell if you don't keep quiet, well your stubbornness is going to cost you dearly, I think I'm going to go, I've already given the message, I'm going to go for it" She walked off waving trying to intimidate me, but I didn't let myself get carried away.

Then I clench my fists, I'm hugged by Croix who realises how angry I am, I hate this woman, she's always manipulating me, it's all the time, I just wish she'd explode and go away, she's done terrible things, I hope she's just threatening, because I genuinely know how scary this woman is.

"I recorded everything, she knew she was being recorded, she's not stupid at all, but the message was also given to her, don't let her intimidate you" said my girlfriend, hugging me.

"I know, Croix, I know, but do you realise the evil things she's already done and what could happen if she's even more cruel than the last ones she's done?" I'm really perplexed and worried about these things, I know how dangerous it is.

"Don't worry, I'm here with you and your mums know how to deal with Daryl like nobody's business, Daryl may look scary, but she only does it to look scary, she knows there's nothing she can do to mess with your life" She's right, all the worst things she's done she's already done, she can't be worse I really hope.

I even took a deep breath, it's better not to get too carried away by what she says and try to move on, even if it's difficult I know it's the best way than to stress myself out with this woman, well now I need to relax, the presentation will be in a few hours, I'll still have to dress up as Shiny Chariot to sign t-shirts and other things, the price of things has even gone up a bit, I'm really looking forward to seeing my rise.