Du Nord: The Believing heart lost years (EN)

2008 Spring Break

Friday 21 March 2008, Dublin, Ireland

"The days went by as normal, I was even making a bit of progress in therapy, which I already confirmed that I wouldn't be able to go to the next appointments because of my trip to Ireland that I always go on during the spring holidays, which is a time when I can always have a bit of happiness and that's really what it was for, as I really wanted to be able to perform at that time, but unfortunately I couldn't do it because of everything that had happened in the previous month."

After a long car journey we arrive home, I get out of the car, now that I'm eighteen I'm no longer a minor, I'll be able to do whatever I want from now on, I'm no longer limited by my steps, so I get out of the car and walk into the house, accompanied by my girlfriend, who takes a deep breath, I've been talking to Mum the whole journey.
I wave to my grandparents as I enter the house and leave my suitcase in my room. I lie down on the bed and let my girlfriend get close to me.

"Ah hi love, how are you now?" Asks my girlfriend.

"Maybe just a little pensive after everything that's happened, you know? I don't know how I'm going to relax on this short spring break, with my head so full of things" I say, looking right into her eyes.

"You don't have to feel so defeated today because you didn't perform, you still bring a smile to my face, you know, now that you're eighteen we can even enjoy things we couldn't enjoy before" She keeps talking about it as if it were magic.

"Buying a drink without having to worry about showing your ID?" Well, that's the only thing I could think of.

"It's nothing like that, silly, have you ever thought that now we can travel the world without needing our parents' permission, that we can now drive, that we can travel around Europe in a car and enjoy it all, you could think of something like that that we can do when we go travelling in the summer, we get our driving licences and then just enjoy it" That's a good idea.

"Well, I've travelled a lot in Europe by bus and plane, a lot for my Shiny Chariot tours, it's good that we're not in Luna Nova, maybe I can think about planning something related to it now that you've mentioned travel" I even get out of bed.

I'm about to leave the room, I think it's time to talk to Mum about my career and also Auntie April can give us some help with her knowledge of technology, I have to take advantage of what's available to do.
When I get to the living room, I notice that Aunt April is also there, it's not so bad here, it's really interesting, she can give us more ideas, I have to think about my return soon.

"Ah Chariot, you've arrived too, I missed you too" said the smiling Mrs Jordan.

"Me too, I know you're great and I'd like your help with my future, my career, we can talk about it in practice" I say to her.

"Well, I was thinking about it, how do you want it to go, because I'm all ears for this new experience" said Aunt April.

"Look, I was thinking of you teaching Daniella how to work with devices to cause effects, like the ones Croix used to use to save magic, it could be useful in a possible return of mine in the summer, plus you should understand a lot of things like she did" I try to make the proposal to Mrs Jordan, who smiles a little.

"Well, I'll see what I can do with it because it's quite an interesting proposal really, I don't know much like Croix, I'm not as good at publicising as she was, but I can make one of these and explain to Daniella how to work it, it's not difficult to do these things" That's good, we'll be able to come back in style.

"Oh how marvellous, you see love, we can perform again with all the style in the world, there's no need to worry" said my girlfriend.

"I still want to be sure that my return to the stage will bear some fruit..." I tell them.