Du Nord: The Believing heart lost years (EN)

One visit

Tuesday 28 August 2018, Arcturus Prison

I've really decided to do this, after about five months in prison she'll be visited and we'll talk again, I've told the girls what's been going on all my life, the things that have happened over time, they now know my secrets, I haven't had to hide them, my journey has really been full of things, but now it's time to continue it, now I'm here.
I get to the prison door, where I'm searched and checked, I leave my things in a bag where the guards leave them in a place for me to pick up later, since I have to go in empty-handed, the only thing they let me pass is a cake I've made especially for Croix, going through everything it's time to start talking to her, I wait for the siren to sound... It starts ringing and I walk through the door, going to sit down at one of the tables where I could see she was, I sit down and she sits down too, waiting for me.

"Hello Chariot, you've finally come, I've been waiting a long time for you to come here, I didn't realise you'd be visiting me so soon" I didn't either, but I ended up telling you a lot and I needed to do this after delaying for so long.

"I ended up coming after all, we've been through a lot haven't we, still a little intrigued by what you talked to me about the day we saved the world" I say to Meridies and she's with a little smile about that whole thing.

"I know you've been quite perplexed by this, look I even tried to hide saying it, but they made me say it, my sentence was going to be 50 years if I didn't say anything, which I ended up confessing everything I could and in exchange for that my sentence was reduced to 20 years, but that can be reduced with the help of bail and also some services, in short, I'll do my best to get out of here one day, I can find a cure for Wagandea and that's enough" Oh Croix, why has it come to this.

"Good luck with that Croix, I hope you manage to do it, by the way, now Diana knows everything too, just like my mum, I've told her everything we've been through, soon Akko will know my true story too, it was a very interesting few days in the summer talking to Diana about my adolescence with you" I say to her as she eats the cake I've given her and I think she's liking a lot.

"So Diana finally knows about the connection you have with each other, that's good for her, you're not hiding the truth, the important thing is that soon Daryl will stop here, it's a good sign, I hope things really work out for you, you deserve it after everything we've caused" said Croix.

"You're really talking all different from what I thought, you're not trying to prove yourself or anything, you're just really despondent to be honest, I've never seen you like this before" she shrugs.

"That's what prison does to you, I've kind of done everything on my journey, so I don't care about anything else, I did the damage I did, I tried what I tried, in the end the whole thing worked out, it wasn't me, it wasn't you, it was them who worked it out, I don't need to prove anything anymore, I tried to be a hero, but in the end I ruined everything... I just want to sit here and mull over my regrets, I've lost everything Chariot, I could have had the happiest life in the world by your side, look at the two of us, if I hadn't done what I did we'd be married, with some children, saving the world, but... None of that happened, we're just here, even Daniella, even with her you can't have the life you wanted, I knew how you were almost married, I was rooting for your happiness and when I heard you were missing I was worried, I knew there was something wrong and I felt like my hands were tied, with so many people for the world to hurt, it had to be you soon Chariot, I don't know if you'll ever forgive me, if you'll ever be happy again, but I'm glad you came to visit me in this place" Croix is even crying.

I could see in her eyes how different they were, I didn't see a look like that when she was a teenager and motivated to change the world, nor when she was older and was a teacher here, she's just desolate, she even tries to smile, you can see how she's in deep regret, poor woman... Oh Croix, one day I might be able to forgive you, but it won't be today, I still want to be able to hear more of her talking and also find out if she really means well.