Du Nord: The Believing heart lost years (EN)

Moving to Annecy

Tuesday 22 August 2000, Paris, France

"I was very hopeful about the whole thing, I thought that the plan to keep selling lots of cookies would continue, by my expectations I could make it in a year and a half or even less, I was working almost all day, creating a reputation in the city, everyone knew my cookies and everyone wanted to buy from me, which made me feel much better, people came to me, I got more fame because of it, but then something happened, which was precisely what made me stop selling in Paris, my father didn't like it at all, just because I had a lot of money, I had already collected at least 90,000 francs in there, just from the Cookies, he didn't want me to go to Luna Nova.

I've just left all the money, every day I get closer to being able to exchange these francs, the pot will be filled with a lot of money like this, there are only 210,000 francs left now, I have to start making more cookies, I thought it would be an impossible task, but I just had to be patient, I still have five years, I can get the money for Luna Nova and then I can also get money for more things.
I left the room, arrived in the kitchen and my father was tidying up, looking like he was packing, I didn't understand anything, are you going to abandon me here? What a scoundrel, well if he's travelling for work and leaving me alone that's even better.

"Where are you going?" I ask him.

"Where are we going, go on girl, pack your things, we're moving from here" I get even more confused, what do you mean? We've barely arrived in Paris.

"We've barely arrived in Paris, you've just taken me out of my house and I'm already leaving?" I ask him.

"You're getting too well known here, I'm not going to let you raise that kind of money to become a witch, we're going to get out of here and move to a small town" What? That doesn't make sense, where did he get the money for that? What the hell,

"What's it like? This is really stupid, because now you want to dictate what I do? Leaving won't do any good" I say as I clench my fists.

"Oh yes, of course I did, I forgot about that, from now on as you're full of money you're going to pay for your own food, I'm not going to give you any change, if you want to earn some money, get on with it, well you've practically paid for it, you're also going to make the house look nice, make the food you're going to pay for, because I'm letting you live for free, you'd better do something" As if I didn't already pay for the food before, what a scoundrel.

"What if I don't? Are you going to kick me out? It'll be even easier for me to go back to Scotland, I've got enough money to travel there with peace of mind" I say to him and he laughs.

"Oh how naïve, if you get kicked out you'll live on the street, you can't go near those two, I've got a restraining order on them and there's no point in trying anything with the courts, a little ten-year-old girl going to complain about nonsense, thinking that some appeal is going to bring you back to your mummies, they must have even ignored all this and given up on you" I get so angry I bang on the table.

I even walk away, what the hell, I can't believe they've done this to me, just when everything was starting to work out, the money for Luna Nova, then I was going to raise the money to get my custody in court, I know these things cost money and it would show how rotten he is.
I put everything in my bag, luckily there's almost nothing in it, I keep everything as I can, clothes, video games, the money for Luna Nova, I think there's everything here, I even go back to where my father is and put the things in the van, it's just a small van, it won't even take the furniture.

"What about the furniture? How are we going to take it, the TV, the bigger things?" I ask my father.

"You want to live in the house? You have plenty of money, if you want comfort buy the furniture, for now it's the most I can take, the van has no space, but I've already left the basics in our new house" Said the bastard, he really wants to make me spend my money, what a bastard.