Du Nord: The Believing heart lost years (EN)

Chariot & Daniella

Thursday 30 November 2006, Luna Nova

"I ended up having a really bad fight with Croix and our relationship really wasn't the best, which I ended up giving in to a lot and getting to the point that I'm going to say now, well I couldn't put up with her behaviour, it was all about Claiomh Solais, she seemed to have completely forgotten about me and I ended up giving in to someone else, I spent a good few days ignoring Croix during the week, trying to avoid talking to her and just staying in my room, now I was the one ignoring her and that would trigger other situations."

Look, it's the end of another day at school, another day of having to put up with Croix buzzing in my ear, honestly I just want to be left in peace and maybe find the fourth word on my own, I even huff and get up from my chair, leaving the room while my friends follow me, I hope she's not at the door or in the corridor going to beg something from me.
We continued our walk to my room, and there was Meridies leaning against the wall, which made me roll my eyes, I couldn't stand her insufferable manner any longer, and she came up to me to say whatever she wanted to say.

"Chariot... Chariot... Please stop ignoring me..." I'm still ignoring you.

"She's already said she doesn't want to talk to you" I told Parker that she's been the person who's been protecting me the most so far.

"And do you have the power to talk over Chariot?" She's going to pick a fight with Daniella again.

"Croix, go back to your room, I've already told you that I don't want to see you around, don't you understand me, I don't want your attention right now" I didn't speak for a while, but at that point I kept walking to the bedroom door and ignoring her reaction.

I take a deep breath and go into the bedroom, where I throw myself on the bed closest to it with my face, I feel like crying, I don't even think it's my bed, but I'm way down, and then I hear the door being opened, it must be the girls, I hope so.
I feel a hand on my head, it's a smaller hand than Croix's, she's not really here, I cry a little, the tears are going to wet this bed a lot, I'm sorry if I do this, I hope nobody thinks it's bad.

"It looks like my blanket is going to get wet tonight, but that's okay, you can cry all you want Chariot" It's Parker, she's here with me consoling me.

"This Croix has been giving us a hard time, damn it Chariot, I can call my friends to get together and give her a message because this won't do, she's on your back all the time" I don't want this.

"Don't do this, there's no need to resort to violence, she's only getting what she deserves, I really hope she realises that she has to value me, unlike you who have valued my friendship and my feelings all along and if she's at the door with her ear to the ground it's good that she hears this" Even my tone of voice is a little tearful as I raise my head and see Daniella looking worried, even wiping away my tears.

"Well, I just wanted to help, but if you think you can put up with her nagging then I'm not going to do anything, besides I know you should be able to look after yourself, I forget how you're trained by Mrs McLaren and you seem to be quite strong" I don't care about that, I just want to be left alone.

I slide my head closer to the brunette who was sitting on the bed, and with that I lie down on her thigh where I'm caressed a little more, she tries in a calm way, with those soft hands on my face, I rub my face against them, I think it's what I need right now.
Meanwhile Becca went to play my video game, I just wanted this contact thing, and my wishes were granted, it makes me feel good, I don't need Croix for that, I have Daniella to make me feel good too.

"You can rest assured, Chariot, I'll be here as long as you want" she said with a little smile.

"I have marvellous friends, I'm grateful to have you helping me in life" I say less tearfully.