Du Nord: The Believing heart lost years (EN)

It's time for other girls

Friday 4 May 2012, Adelaide, Australia

"There weren't many other events that happened over the course of 2011 apart from Ryan trying to manipulate me, I ended up just relaxing for the rest of the year and living life with new things, or just doing what I needed to do to impress, which I even managed at the end of the year by winning the university games again and getting even more attention from Luna Nova, the dean herself said I was the perfect student for the job, which made me a little excited, but on the other hand this time away also made me miss the people I'd left behind, Daniella, my mum, my family, everyone I didn't even get to say goodbye to and they didn't even know I was here, just Aunt Rosemary who sent me news from time to time."

Another normal day, time to go home, I've got a bit more of a reputation, it seems they're looking for me to be a teacher in Luna Nova, that's very good, as soon as I graduate I'll have a whole quality ahead of me, I can't wait to be close to Diana again, this time totally as someone else.
I get to the car and before I get in I'm approached by my friends, who must want to go out with me, as I have nothing to do I think it might be a good idea to rest my head today, I haven't been out for a while and I've been studying a lot these days.

"Hey Ursula, don't go home now, let's go for a walk, I just want to say that there's a girl out there who wants to go out with you" I put my hand to my forehead feeling a little embarrassed.

"Look, people, why do you keep pushing girls at me?" I ask them.

"You've said you're gay, why do you even deny it? It's strange, you used that to push Ryan away and you're actually straight?" It's not that, the truth is that I still think about Daniella a lot.

"When you're thinking a lot about someone you almost married, I don't know if it's easy just to get to someone else" I answer Isabella, who puts her hand on my shoulder.

"Could this person be with someone else by now? Let's give them a chance to go out with someone" Well, I think I'll do that since they insist so much.

"And who is this girl?" I ask them and they guide me.

I thought it was going to be a day of partying with them at home, but apparently they're trying to arrange another date, I think I should try it without having any commitments, I'm going to talk to the girl and sort a few things out, it can't be that bad, I know you can understand Daniella, that's because there's no way you can see it, it's a shame really, I so wish she was here.
Until they arrive at a place, the library, I see a girl with glasses and black hair, she's quite pretty I admit, I'm even impressed, they really show me pretty girls, if I'm not mistaken it's Erika from the history of magic.

"She's quite fond of you Ursula, go and have a chat" After that, the girls leave as if they'd abandoned me, and I wipe my hands over my face in shame.

I walk through the library just to talk to this Erika girl, she can't be that into me, she just seems to be into her, I've never noticed this girl looking at me, so I take a deep breath, I think I'm going to ask her out for a walk, or a chat, I get close to her and she even turns to me and reassures me.

"Oh Ursula, are you here to pick up a book?" She doesn't look like a girl in love.

"Actually, I came to talk to you more specifically, do you want to go out?" I keep rubbing the back of my neck and she adjusts her glasses, blushing a little.

"Oh, so they said I've been looking at you and you thought I was into you? I know they spread the word that you're gay, I'm gay too, I think the people in this place are a bit excited, but I accept your proposal" I knew these girls were making things up.

I shrug and we leave, she's quite pretty I admit, but she's nothing compared to Daniella, how I miss my wife, I'm always thinking about her, but this girl can also seem like a good person, I'm just not going to get involved with anything serious, I still need to think about what's best for me, so we arrive at the car park and I let her into my car, already getting ready to leave, she even complimented the car.