Du Nord: The Believing heart lost years (EN)

Back with Croix friendship

Friday 8 December 2006, Luna Nova

"Well, my relationship with Daniella Parker had really blossomed, while the one with Croix was in decline, I had been giving Parker more chances since she treated me well and even after we had sex that day we were still the same friends as always, without changing anything with the exception of a little more contact and perhaps greater intimacy when we were changing or going for a shower, we weren't so embarrassed to do these things together anymore, I was kind of letting myself go and trying to enjoy a good relationship, except that Croix tried and tried all these days to change things between me and her, to redeem herself in some way and I, as silly as I was at the time, didn't take long to forgive her."

Training was coming to an end for the day, I'm well used to it now and as a witch I'm much more skilful, I can feel quite confident for the next word and even show the more complex spells when I present myself.
My mum came over to talk to me some more, I think it must be the results of the training, I did what I could today, it wasn't so hard and I even managed to get a few things right that I couldn't even get close to before.

"You're making a lot of progress physically, I can see your agility increasing, your movements are much lighter and go with the wind, it's going to be a huge improvement by the time you perform, but I didn't come here to talk about that" I even cheer up a bit.

"Ah, I'm training with the best" I say to Mum Laura, who pats me on the shoulder.

"To see beyond, patience is important Chariot" I didn't quite understand.

"What do you mean, Mum?" I ask her.

"You'll find out why, but it's good to remember what I said, I've seen how relations are between you and Croix and between you and your friend, things seem to have changed a lot, you've become more bitter towards Croix, was there something you discussed that day that really got to you?" I nod my head in agreement.

"She said horrible things about me, I felt like I was an object, like I wasn't a person, like all this was just a game for her to achieve her goals and I was an accessory for her to achieve them, it was because of that" I say to Mum who nods and understands everything, it's good to see that someone is going to help me a lot.

"Well I understand how it must hurt, I've also said a lot of hurtful things to Bernadette and I've said them without thinking, I think Croix must be at that stage, she still loves you very much Chariot, I see her saying it every day to me and to April, I think you should give her a second chance to come round, maybe then you can get along again, as well as helping her with her career" Ahhhhh, I don't know if this is going to work.

"Give Croix a second chance? After everything? Didn't you hear how furious and devastated I was that day, Mum?" I'm even a little angry that she made a decision like that.

"I know it was quite unexpected and that you were also in the heat of the moment, but trust me, it's good to get back together with Croix, even if things didn't work out, at least the friendship can work out and you can invest more in a closer relationship with your roommate" I snort.

"I get it Mum" I turn round and head for the bedroom, I'd better get changed instead of thinking about it, today's going to be a busy day.

I'm a bit too devastated to really think about these things, I don't want to keep Croix in my head too much, besides everything is going marvellously with Daniella, I can even talk to her about things and sort things out in the best way, but even so, why forgive Croix right now? I know forgiveness is good, but if she messes up again? Well, I think I'll be patient about it, then maybe things will get better.

[...]

It's lunchtime, I see that Croix isn't even here, so I'm going to go and talk to Daniella about the situation, she might be able to help me a bit, maybe in a more intelligent way, even though my mum has more experience, she's the one who has more contact with Croix, and I don't know, I think she's managing to understand me a lot.