Du Nord: The Believing heart lost years (EN)

The contract is over

Sunday 1 October 2006, Glastonbury, England

"If it wasn't enough that I'd had the shock of Croix getting extremely angry because Woodward had chosen me to be the witch with Claiomh Solais, things could get even worse and they did, when I was doing another of my performances, I was even feeling happy for a while, showing everyone the first word, only it didn't do much good, since without Croix the stage effects weren't of the same quality and my audience found itself in a greater decline than I had gained earlier in the summer, a decline was beginning there and Alan seemed intent on that."

Wow, the people here weren't impressed by the first word, the lack of Croix only makes things more complicated, I thought the Shiny Arc would give me an extra breath, the worst thing is that without Croix I can't have the same ability as before to get attention, she's still not talking to me and Alan has sacked her.
I even see some clapping, but the stands are much emptier than before, that's too bad, what used to be full is now full of holes, I take a deep breath and head for the dressing room, a little frustrated, I know I'm going to hear a bomb coming from Alan.

"Seriously Chariot, look at this, how can you not maintain the quality, I even got a replacement to take Croix's place and you still can't deliver the same thing, we're having a drop in audiences and money like this" As if he's not even responsible for all this isn't he.

"I've already said that she doesn't have the same ability as Croix, she can't do the effects as well, apart from the fact that Croix did the work of many for just one, you forced us into this, how are we going to get more if this is happening?" He doesn't even seem to listen to me, all he cares about is money.

"I'm tired of all this too, you've been useful enough, I think I'm going to have to tell you that it's the end of our contract, I'll break it myself and you won't have to pay your fine, you'll be very unprofitable for me" I turn to him in shock, how can he make a decision like that? This is absurd.

"How can you do that? I wasn't even consulted, I didn't even have a chance to talk to you and your motives seem pretty silly, what do you mean I'm not useful? I can't organise the performances on my own, I'm underage, I don't have any money" I say to him, who shrugs his shoulders and doesn't seem to care.

"That's your problem girl, you're the one who wanted to venture out with Shiny Chariot, you didn't read the contract conditions properly and you danced, I've done what I had to do for now, you've been very profitable, but I still have a lot of people to use, unless you want an extra condition so we can continue the contract" He's got very strange eyes.

"And what condition is that?" I'm getting desperate.

"I'll even organise things so that Croix can come back and the presentations too, but without being his manager, but for that the condition is that you and your girlfriend pay me private visits, if you know what I mean" What's he trying to imply? I'm confused.

"I don't understand anything" I say confused.

"You were born yesterday girl, the condition is in yourself and your girlfriend with their bodies, if they're mine like that I can make an exception, but that's not for anyone to know" I blush a little.

"I'd rather not perform, get out of here soon, don't disturb me you bastard" I even get angry and he shrugs his shoulders.

"You're the one who has to leave, these things came out of my pocket, you're very ungrateful, shame on you, change your clothes and go back to your school, all this stuff you've got isn't yours, it came out of my pocket and will be sold, only your brand as a Chariot will remain, only by then it's too late to chase it" He even laughs.

When I left I was very depressed, even a little scared, the way he spoke to me about my body frightened me, I even tried to change more hidden, maybe he was watching me change, apart from the way he spoke to me about the two of us he seemed to be thirsty, I wanted to punch him in the face, nobody objectifies Croix like that and me too.
I got changed, but I was holding back the tears, this is tremendously unfair, after doing everything, I've put in the effort and all he's done is scrap my performances to have a reason to work for me, I've put in the effort and now things are being thrown away. I leave the stage, see that there's a small queue of fans watching me and try to smile and wave.