Du Nord: The Believing heart lost years (EN)

Confessions

Monday 14 February 2011, Adelaide, Australia

"The time at the university went by as normal, with me going out with my friends, building up my reputation and hearing from the dean that I was doing very well and that Luna Nova was already looking at me as a possible future professor there, I was already getting hopeful that at least one of the plans would work out, but then I had to deal with a nuisance that came like a stone in my shoe and on a specific day, this person would show up, when it had been a year since I had proposed to Daniella."

Another day at school has passed, I've managed to pass the year with ease and I'm starting my second year and the beginning of the second semester, so far my grades have remained high and that's great, I can't wait to see how my record is going to look at Luna Nova, I know things could get very interesting ahead.
I leave the university and see a Ferrari in front of me, honking its horn as I open the window, it's Ryan, I wipe my hands across my face and know I can't go back to my car in the car park, as he'll be following me, so I walk over to his car and he smiles at me, while I keep my arms crossed.

"Come in, I promise to take you somewhere interesting today" I nod.

"I'm not going to trust getting into a stranger's car" I say, ignoring him.

"You can get in, please, I promise I won't do anything wrong to you, I have all the respect in the world for you Ursula, you can be sure of that" I keep rolling my eyes, and then I decide to get in the car straight away so that he doesn't try my patience.

"If you try to do anything to me, I'll pull your penis out with magic" I tell him in a threatening tone.

"I'm not going to try anything, I swear, baby, I just want to take you out for a special moment, even more so for today, after that time I tried to follow you I realised how far I've come and I want to show you what a man of value I am" I know what a man of value is.

I just keep quiet while he drives the Ferrari around, I don't want to know anything, well at least the seats in this thing are very comfortable, I've never been in a car like this before, a new Ferrari full of luxury, I even look at his face, he looks very psychopathic, weird, I don't know, he's just ugly, like he's going to pull out a gun at any moment.
We got to the place he'd told me was a restaurant, he got out of the car and left the key with a valet, then gave me the ticket to get in, and we went into the place, it's all chic and classy, with me still in my university uniform it only made things even weirder, and I got to a table.

"Look at all the things I can offer you, I bet you've never been to a restaurant like this in your life, even more so if you're the only one wearing university clothes, look at how I have the power to transcend all standards, I can come in here whenever I want and dress the way I want" I don't give a damn about that.

"Very well Mr Erwin, what can I get you today, we have all the best options today, I've even brought a companion, how surprising" said the waiter.

"Bring your best wine and surprise me with the food, my partner must be hungry" he said and I don't know why I've come here.

I keep my hand to my face, feeling more and more pressurised by this guy, I can't even open my mouth about what I really am, even worse is imagining that it would be my birthday with Daniella, at least as a proposal, I'd be married to her by now, but the world does this to me, for the nine witches, I'm with this crazy, psychopathic guy doing this.
He's still looking at me, it's disgusting, I just try to look away, seeing the other people, who give us disapproving looks, everyone here dressing in a chic and refined way and me here dressing like just anyone, how can that be.

"You've been very quiet Ursula, is something bothering you so much? Are you uncomfortable in my presence? You really don't like me, do you?" You got almost everything right, congratulations, not bad.