SIDNAAZ ( An Unforgettable Journey)

12. Stepping over the boundaries?

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Subha saadhe 9 baje.

Sid- han toh kya hua kal raat ko?

Sana- mujhe pehle bolne de...dekh mujhe pata hai mein kabhi kabaar over kar deti hu mein har chiz m over hi hu...mein shayad kavi kavi tera point bina samze tujhe kuch bhi keh deti hu par mein itna batana chahti hu ki mere intention tujhe hurt karne ke kabhi nahi hote. Mein khudko fasaa lungi magar tujhe kabhi kuch hone nahi dungi. Aur tujhe agar lage ki tere zindagi m mein zabardasti ghus rahi hu toh please bata de mein side hat jaungi. Mereko nahi chahiye ki tu mere wajah se esa soche ki tera freedom chala gaya hai...ya esa kuch hai na...it's just that ki mujhe tujhse jitna attachment ho gayi hai na toh mujhe darr lag pada hai tere liye ki kahin teri tabyat kharaab nah ho jaaye. 

Aur esa hai ki tera hakk hai merepe meine diya hua hai wo hakk tujhe aur mujhe laga mein tujhse ye chiz mang skti hu ki agar apne liye na sahi mere liye toh tu ye kare. Aur agar tujhe lag raha hai ki ye mein camera ke liye tujhe badnaam kar rahi hu toh please mujhe maaf kar de mereko nahi pata ye bahar kese jaa rha hoga mujhe nahi hai utni samajh par tu mujhe sachi sachi bol. Aunty ko tension nahi hoti hogi? Tere beheno ko bhanjiyo ko nahi hoti hogi? (she whispered these lines making sure no one can get it other than Sid) please tu mere baare side rakh ke ek baar soch. Tu ghar se bahar hai tu bola na pehli baar tu aunty se itnaa dur bina baat kiye bahar hai...unko kese lagega agar tera tabyat kharaab hote rahega...unko kya bolte h wo usko helpless nahi lagega? Tu soch fir tera jo decision hoga mein manne ready hu. Mujhe hai ki tu bhul jaa ki meine tujhe kuch chiz maangi thi par inn baton ke basis pe tu bata.

Sid was almost in tears seeing her speak with so much care and feeling so content that he has made such a strong bond in this hell of a house where people only know how to take advantage of each other and then there is Shehnaaz. 

Sid (in mind)- After caring for me so much. After bearing so much pain she still thinks I am hurt because she interfered in his personal matters???  She thinks she is overstepping her boundaries??? Sachii pagal hai ye ladki. How could a person be so pure from heart? I know who can be...Shehnaaz Kaur Gill. She forgets that she is also there to play when it comes to me... her Sidharth. I can't bear to lose her at any cost. I have never felt like this in such a long time. I don't even remember when was the last time I felt for a girl like this. Tu toh buri tarah fass gayi Sana. Mere saath life long.

He was lost in thoughts and in awe of the girl sitting and taking the blame for hurting him when actually she was trying and fighting for his peace. She made a small gesture by wrapping her hands on his head and kissed his forehead.

Sana- Stop stressing. Itna tension matt le bas soch apne betterment ke liye. aur I am sorry agar-

Sid- firstly, tune mujhe hurt nahi kiya hai mein senti hojata hu tere kuch kuch harkaton se jesa ki tune kal kiya. Dekh ye mera problem hai...right? ye mereko problem deg...right?  par tu kal lad padi ye chiz mujhe feel dilaane ke liye. Tu kitna time tak sahi darling wo sab just to ask me this... and wo mereko bahut feel hua I mean bahut acha feel hua. Secondly, tune maanga nahi hai mujhse kuch but tu jeeti hai wo chiz...Deal huyi thi na humari tu toh saath m dil bhi le gayi Sweetheart. Aur yes, mein iske baare me sochaa kal hi socha raat ko and I promise you ki ab se mein control karunga. Kasam se karunga aur turant toh pura nahi chod skta parr kam kar dunga. Bahut kam kar dunga. Par mein kya karu yahan jab bahut frustrate lagta hai toh mere paas kuch nahi krne hai...

Sana- tu usi time mere paas aajana aur agar mujhse frustrated ho mujhe pata hai yahan tera adhe se zyada time toh meine hi tera para high kar Rakha hota hai tab tu Arti ya Zariwalla ya paras kisike paas jaake mere baare bol de halka hojaa...isko jab hum andar dabaa dete hai na toh ese nikalta hai ye. Samza? Aur rahi baat ki bahar kese image jayegi ki ye kesa bolta rehta hai sabke baare m toh tu kisika buraayi nahi kar rha tu apna feeling bata raha hai na aur logon ko real feeling se zyada kuch nahi pasand aata aur tu bhale sabke saath na kar 2 logon ko rakh mein keh v nahi rahi tu mujhe rakh par rakh tu 2 logon ko jinko tu atleast apni asli feeling bata sake. Nahi toh tujhe jo sabse pyara hai unse baat kar. Meditate kar aur jawaab maang.

Sid- kal raat bethke yehi sab sochi hai na tu ki kese tu mereko samzayegi ye sab... han? moti? 

Sid was feeling so much love for her that he couldn't even tell her right now. She unfolded and detangled his whole life mess within a few seconds but she has also made a lot of struggles to get this. He was brought back from his thoughts when she coughed holding her throat and was a bit breathless. She was suddenly breathing heavily due to her cold.

Sid- Theek hai tu? han baby? Bukhaar hai kya? BB ko bolu wapas bulayenge tereko? Kuch bol baba.

Sana- Takleef ho rahi hai na mujhe dekh ke ese toh baby mera bhi yehi hota hai jab mein tujhe takleef m dekhti hu aur shayad 10x zyada. Mereko ese lagta hai koi mera dil nikal diya hai bahaar.

Sid then pulled her into a hug burying his head in her arms. It was like he wanted to feel protected for once. He has always been strong for the world, it's the first time when he can be vulnerable as well and someone is there to protect him and Sana has been there for him and done it here in the house a lot of times.

Sana- mein hoon na tu kyun tension le raha hai bebu...mein bholi dikhti hu, na samaz hu par mein tereko sambhal lungi. Tu ek baar hakk toh rakh...tereko toh problem hai merese

Sid laughed and then wiped his lone tear and thought he had been very emotional since sometimes. He wanted to get out of the house ASAP and wanted to confess all his raw and real feelings to Sana. 

Just to spoil the perfect Sidnaaz moment Shefalli Bagga again came there saying,

Bagga- fir chipki ye chi

Sid- Bagga tereko itni problem ho rahi hai kahin tu mere pyaar m toh nahi hai isiley Shehnaaz se itna jal rhi hai

Bagga- hahaha tumhse jiska career-

Sana- Shut up Shefali...

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