SIDNAAZ ( An Unforgettable Journey)

69. Mein toh teri hoon na

After Bigg Boss gave numerous warnings to Paras to stop his Maniac act Maheera and Asim took him out of the house in the garden area. Sid was just standing near Sana to guard her against anything that might harm her physically, but he was questioning how he could guard her mental well-being when he had behaved so badly with her yesterday.

Sid (in mind)- Tujhe koi chot nahi ayegi Sana jab tak I am here but mene tujhe kal itna hurt kiya hai mentally uska kya aur ab tere mental health ko kaise protect karu mein?

Sana- Hogaya uska ki aur bolna hai usko?

Rashmi- Tu kyun sunn rahi hai itnaa jaane de na usse

Sana- Mein bas dekh rahi hu uski kitni fatt rahi hai merese. Save hua hai wo. Elimination se bacha hai wo. Mera wala- I mean Sidharth ne save kiya usse. Par usko merese pata nahi kya problem hai. Mereko chen m dekh nahi sakta wo. Chhahta tha humare beech jhagada ho jo ki hua nahi usiliye jali padi hai uski

Rashmi- Hua nahi jhagada? Sana are you out of your mind ye admi tujhse kal kese baat kar raha tha-

Sana- Wo humare beech ka baat tha aur wo jhagada nahi tha jhagada tab hota jab mein aur ye ek dusre ke khilaaf hote. Mein kabhi iske khilaaf gayi hi nahi toh jhagde ka sawaal nahi uthta

Rasmi- This is what everyone wants to make you understand that tera self respect-

Sana- EXACTLY rashmi....Mein bhi yahi bol rahi MERA self- respect....MERA Pyaar, Mera rishta ya jo bhi hai wo sirf mera hai toh better hai mein sabki sunna ab band kar du aur tu bhi iss baare merese baat na kare.

Asim- Ye ajeeb hi hai

Sana- Abe oye kal tereko meine kuch nahi bola tha aj nahi chup rahungi apne na limit m reh kar baat kiya kar. Meine tujhse sawaal pucha hai tu jawaab diya kar...Sidharth ne wo kiya Shehnaaz ne ye kiya tum logon ne kuch nahi kiya? Ek baar kya haath pakadna sikha diya wo uske puuch hi ban jaate hai saare (hinting to Paras and Maheera)

Arti- Sana duty kar le merese kaam nahi ho raha mein nahi kar sakti tere kaam

Sana- Haaaaann mein wahi sochu ye kaise chup hai ab tak ye kaise nahi fudki. Madam ka mudda hota bhi nahi hai par pop-corn jese fuddak ke aajati hai...tu baksh de kaamon ko Arti mein kar lungi

Arti- Tu merese kyu ladh rahi hai

Sana- Bhaunkti rahe

She left from there without giving any footage to Jham-, I mean Arti. Sid was just watching and recalling everything he said yesterday. He followed Sana to make things right between them when he saw she was standing in front of the mirror looking at her reflection and questioning her whole existence. Sid noticed it and he could hear his heart broken once again. He went near her and held her arms from the back. 

Sana- Matt de ye moral support. Nahi chahiye mujhe. Mein thik hu ese. 

Sid- Gussa hai?

Sana- Kispe?

Sid- aur kispe merepe. Inka toh tujhe fark nahi padta par merese hi padta hai aur kal meine kitna kuch bol diya

Sana- Yehi chiz ka bura lagta hai mereko ki tujhe sab pata hai fir bhi tu ye harqatein karta hai. Mujhe koi problem nahi hai teri naraazgi jhelni hai. Mujhe maloom hai har rishte m jitne phool khilte hai utne kaante bhi chubhte hai toh wo chiz ke liye mein bol rahi hu ki tu kabhi apne aap ko akele nahi payega teri narazgi m...mujhe pata hai kal tu jitna mujhe hurt kr rha tha usse kayi zyada hurt tu khud tha. Tere andar bahut kuch bharaa pada tha aur mein khush thi ki kisi bhi zariya se wo kam se kam tere dil se nikal toh raha hai. Par kabhi apne aap ko wo matt kaho jo duniya suunna chahti hai tumhare muh se. Mein bahut bachpana karti hu bakwaas baatein karti hu aur kabhi kabhi khudko maarti bhi hu par kabhi apne aapko wo sab naamon se nahi bulaati jo wo log bolte hai mujhe sunna chaahte hai mujhe ye qubool krne ke liye ki han mein hu...chaahe gusse m ho ya hasi mazaak m. Bebu tu kitna strong hai. Tune mujhse zyada duniya dekhi hogi...mujhse zyada logon se mila hoga aur tu kyun unke baaton ko apna bana raha hai...Kya kya bola tu kal ese aage kabhi matt karna. Tu mera kullu hai tu kitna acha hai ye mein batane bethu toh dusra Biggboss season ban jayega bebu. Please aage se tu gaali galoch kar, thappad wuppad chaplein maarle par apne aap ko ese na bolna. 

Sidharth was completely shocked at how can Sana be so selfless right at that moment. If it were any other person he/she would have turned their back and left him alone for his nuisance behaviour and here this girl was calming his storms down. 

Sid - Kal mene jo kaha tha na ki mere life m kabhi ese log nahi dekhe tujh jese wo sach kaha tha. Bhagwaan kaise mujhe tujhse milaya kyun wo mujhe nahi pata bas itna pata hai ki kisi janam bahut ache karm hai mere jo iss janam m tujhko itna kareeb se paya hai

Sana- Sara jahaan lage jhootha, magar sachha pyar bas tujhi se paya hai...

Sid- Aaahaaa...wah wah wah...(after some seconds he bowed his head towards the crooked of her neck and whispered in his ever soft tone) Baby I am sorry. I am so fcuking sorry.

Sana- Apne aapko bol Sidharth. Pehle apne aapko bol... kitna kosh raha tha tu apne apko

Sid- Han par meine jiss tarah se terese baat ki jis tone m that was not right at all bahut ganda feel ho raha mereko. Bahut zyada

Sana- Mujhe pata hai...I agree jis tone jis tarah se tune mujhse baat kiya that was not fine at all and bahar jo Rashmi bol rahi thi aur bahut logon ko bhi lag raha hoga ki mein kyu ese maan gayi, pighal gayi ye wo par mein gussa kis baat pe karu jab tu already jaanta hai ki wo teri galti hai. Ab hogayi galti maan li hai tune apni galti toh kya sazaa du. Insaan galtiyan nahi karega toh fir aaj duniya kuch aur hi hoti. Aur mein usse kya sazza du jisse dard m dekh kar mujhe hi sazza mil jayegi.

Sid- Fir bhi...Tu bahut achi hai Shehnaaz isiliye tu ese bo le rahi hai log ese nahi hai na.

Sana- Kuch fir bhi nahi...Mein toh teri hu na fir kiss baat ka darr hai tujhe. Shukla sahab fass gaye ho ab aap ese hatt hatt chal chal nikal karke bhi nahi hataa payenge mujhe aap apne zindagi se

Sid- Not even in my worst nightmares. I would never want to see you leaving.

They were having this whole conversation Sana's back pressed on Sid's chest and Sid looked at her from the mirror and Sana's eyes were closed half of the conversation, she was feeling Sid's heartbeat and speaking everything from her heart. Sid then made her turn around to look at him. He bent down and kissed her lips slowly then engulfed her in the warmest of hugs. She melted in that hug and she felt like she was sleeping on the clouds of heaven where there was only love and peace for her. She finally got her sukoon back. she was finally home again. 

She didn't want to break the hug and neither did he. He started walking backwards and made it towards the balloon bed where he lay down taking her on his top completely. They have both closed their eyes and taking long deep breaths as if to take in the whole moment for the rest of their lives. 

Just then a song played and there trance broke. They got an announcement to go to the garden area and then they saw Shilpa Shetty. She was there to teach some couples yoga and it was supposed to be done with partners. Sana who thought Sidharth would not choose her was about to move when Sid held her waist to stop her from changing places and announced to everyone that-

Sid- Meri Yoga partner Shehnaaz hai

Sana- (She was completely shocked) Haeeennnn (she then giggled like a kid)

Shilpa- Acha chalo positions lelo aap sab

Sid to Sana (whispering)- Are you ready for the task?

Sana- Are you ready for the task?

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