SIDNAAZ ( An Unforgettable Journey)

37. Anxiety Issues

Trigger warning- anxiety attack and self-harm

Arti- Shehbaaz hai ye?

Sid- nahi nahi ye Shehbaaz toh nahi hai (he has seen his pictures on the photo frame she has kept on their bedside table)

G- Shehnaaz

Sana- haen? Ye kaun hai

Everyone laughed at her confusion

G- itni jaldi awaaz bhi bhulaa diya?

Sana got it who he was and she was not ready to move around to see his face. Not now not ever. He was the ex she was talking about to Sid this morning.

Sid- (murmuring) Ritesh?

Sana just nodded her head yes

Ritesh- mujhe laga hi tha ki tu nahi paltegi...mere paas teri maa ki chithi hai nahi padhegi??

Sana chuckled thinking which mom he was talking about.

Ritesh- thik hai matt palat...bahut akad hai na tujhme...sidharth ko batayi na? kese tu begunnah logon ko phasaati hai usse satark karaa de warna ab toh wo hi jayega...aur tere doctors tere liye anti-depressants v bheje hai dedu yahin?

Sidharth wanted to break the gate and break his face. Sana started singing again trying to mute the "not-so-stranger's" voice, she felt like she would throw up if she continued hearing him anymore.

Sana- "jidde ang sang rabb hai onhu fer kisika darr hai...satnaam shri Waheguru

Ritesh- tera fav chiz laaya hu...nahi dekhegi...teri fav...aare zeher ki baat kar raha hoon

Sid was about to make a move when Asim held his arms steadying him and Bigg boss made an announcement

BB- biggboss chate hai ki ritesh ghar ke baahar chalejaye...

Ritesh- bahar ake mil lena ya mari padi rehna kisiko ghanta farak nahi padta terese aur kisiko padna v nahi chahiye...jaa raha hu mein tere hi ghar kal...kal teri barshi rakhi hai tere maa baap ne...Punjab di katrina kaif hahaha jutti meri

Sana stopped singing and chuckled at the fact that her family had organised a "Death anniversary" in their home. She just nodded her head sideways and smiled. Sid and everyone else have their hands on their mouth to shout curse words to Ritesh and her shitty family.

As soon as he went outside Sid ran in front of Sana who was keeping her head held high and was smiling. Sid didn't want to say anything to her currently he just brushed his thumb on her hands and kept looking at her eyes, which showed nothing. It's like she is empty from within.

bb- bigg boss batana chaahte hai ki ajki karya ki awadhi ab samaapt hoti hai aur jese ki kisine niyamo ko barkaraar nahi Rakha isiliey iss hafte ghar ka koi captain nahi Banega.

Arti- par Sana toh hai bigg boss

Sana- are mein Sid ki mummy ke time freeze se hatt gayi thi na uss wajah se.

Mahira- sidharth Shehnaaz ki hathghadiyan khol do kabse wese hai wo

Sidharth hurriedly unbuckled the handcuffs and pulled Shehnaaz into his embrace rubbing her back. She showed no emotion looking up in the sky while hugging him as if she was seeking some answers from her God.

Arti-mein aur Rashmi dinner bana lete hai wese v late hogaya hai tu Sana ke saath beth ja

Sana- are kyu...wo toh mera duty hai. Koi chakkar nahi hai mein banaungi dinner. Esa v kya hogaya hai bhai

Sid- Sanaa

Sana- abe tum log mereko sympathiyaan de rhe ho uska koii zarurt nahi hai kyunki wo jo bol ke gaya usme naya toh kuch tha nahi wo sab mujhe pehle se pata hai