a sunshine boy meets a broken girl
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"ugh I hate packing "
"I'll help " I shrug .
"no , I'll do it on my own " she says checking the clothes on the hanger
"but you hate packing "
"I hate breathing too , I do that just fine "...
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(A/n : all caps means her yelling and the. ' -' means she's choking and also please don't read if your not comfortable reading about panic attacks). This one's gonna be hell. sorry fellas . -----------------
After finishing all my work, I decide to leave my room and go to the roof for a while. The view from here is breathtaking . Beautiful night sky adorned with stars . My hairs are everywhere due to the wind. "Oh, you're here too," Celeste says. She's sitting at the edge of the building with her head rested on her knee. I got so caught up with the view, I didn't even notice her.
I just shrug and sit right next to her. "Ivy, why don't you like me?" I look at her. She has that pain in her eyes that I'm familiar with. "Celeste, no, I-" she cuts me off. "No, um, it's okay. I've just accepted the fact that I'm just annoying , I just wanna know how," she says, smiling only then I notice the tears in her eyes and it breaks my heart into a million pieces. "Celeste, no, I- I never meant to hurt you please don't cry " "oh no ,I'm not crying because of you , you're not the one to blame "I take a deep breath and turn towards her.
"It was never about you, Celeste. I-I have trust issues, really bad ones. Ever since we've been here, you've been nothing but nice to me and you're far from annoying . Whoever thinks that might be the biggest idiot to exist . " she smiles . We stay silent for a while. " Why do you want to be my friend so badly?" she just looks in front and laughs softly wiping her eyes . "There is no specific reason, that's just who I am, Ivy." I nod, looking in front of me.
We sit in silence for a while. "Celeste, I can't promise you that I'll open up to you or feed you with false hopes, but I do know that something is hurting you. I won't force you, but if you ever need someone to listen, then I'm a good listener," I say with a polite smile, or as Grace calls it, a grumpy smile. She smiles and nods. I stand up to leave. "Ivy," I turn around to look at her. "You should smile more, even if it is your grumpy one," she says. I roll my eyes.
"What did Grace tell you?" she smiles, standing up, but this one isn't her 'I'll be okay smile,' this is the kind that screams 'Celeste Brown' and 'sunshine girl.' .
"Just that you're a big grump and use your grumpy smile in case of emergencies, like this one," she says, laughing. "I'll kill her," I say in a whiny tone. "Nah huh, I like her a little too much to let that happen," she says as we both go back to the penthouse. "And I like her a little too much to kill that idiot." she giggle's "Amen to that " i say and she reaches her room. "Good night, Ivy." "Good night, Celeste," I say, and she closes her bedroom door and I go to my own room . For the first time, I actually feel good .
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It's been almost 20 days since we've been here. The shoot is almost over; tomorrow is the last day for shooting, but I don't think I can make it today. I feel super weak. For almost a month, I've been surviving on coffee, and I have almost lost 7 kgs. I still can't eat, and the fact that I forgot to bring my sleeping pills is not helping either.
