a sunshine boy meets a broken girl
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"ugh I hate packing "
"I'll help " I shrug .
"no , I'll do it on my own " she says checking the clothes on the hanger
"but you hate packing "
"I hate breathing too , I do that just fine "...
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Call incoming.
"Hi Ivy, I have great news. Are you back home?" she sounds so excited.
"Yes, pray tell."
"So, I got a call from none other than The Elite Modeling Agency."
Oh my god, it has always been a dream of mine to work with them. I didn't think I was enough, so it's quite a shocker for me. "Grace, that's big." "I know, right? They are having a fashion week in Paris, so they need you." Holy shit, this is jumping and eyes-widening kinds of news for me. "It's six months away from now, so you'll have to start eating double from now." "What in the world do you mean by that?"
"Um, here's the catch, they said that the dress they have planned for you is kinda the life of the whole show, and they think that you're a little too thin for that, so they said that it would only work if you gain a few kg's. I have to let them know by tomorrow, so I need your decision." Fuck, fuck, fuck, this can't work. We all saw how that worked out.
Flashback
The waiter brought me my food, which immediately made me feel like spilling my guts. I couldn't just not eat because I was literally sitting in front of Celeste. She saw me fainting, and she already thinks that I don't eat much, she would immediately know. It's okay, I can so do it. It's just a few bites. It's a salad, it's healthy. It won't make me fat.
By the time I encouraged myself to have a bite, they already ate half their food. I somehow had the entire bowl, but their words were like a realization that hit me like a bullet.
"You shouldn't eat that. You're already gaining weight, you know."
"You're fat, Ivy."
"You don't want to be a her again, do you?"
"You shouldn't eat."
"No one will like you if you get fat."
"Shut up, shut up, just shut up, Ivy!!"
So I did what I had to. I excused myself to the restroom and immediately threw up all the contents. Luckily, Celeste arrived as soon as I got out of the restroom, so she didn't know.
"Ivy, are you there?" I take a deep breath. "Um, yes, I'm there. I'll tell you the final answer till tomorrow." "Okay, good night." I nod and realize that she can't see me, so I quickly squeeze a night before she ends the call.
I tiredly sit on the bed. It's just so frustrating sometimes. I don't even realize that I'm crying until a tear drop falls on my hand. "Oh fuck no, I'm not crying, not again." I wipe my tears and without thinking twice, take my EarPods and my pair of roller skates, which I asked Grace to order. I leave my house and go to the skating rink. It is just a few minutes' walk from here . Though it is abandoned, it is in very good condition except for a few stones here and there. I asked Grace to reach the owner and just buy the rink, but she could not contact the owner anyhow, so that's that.
